Absolute disaster, this page has been lost somehow. I'm writing about a year later after accidentally deleting it. I'm not sure if it's the fault of the host or an errant cybercafe computer. The page was at http://lifemagic.freespaces.com/diaries. Do let me know if you know if it's been archived anywhere.
So briefly, I have to try and remember what occoured between being in Colva and getting down to Kerela.
There are three main memories from the time. One was buying nice herbs of a man on a motorbike and becoming paranoid.
Not a main memory, but my sister moved to town and got her second grandchild on January 24th.
Sitting in Goodmans restaurant all evening and being bored. I generally wasn't enjoying myself at this point.
By far the strongest memory was an experience that was to change my life. I went back to the room and fell asleep. I had a dream. All I remember is an OBE which was nightmarish in some way. Then it turned into a dream. I was in England with Darren, my English friend, and I told him I'd be home for Christmas.
Then I was in a nunnery with Mother. I was sitting on one side of a desk with her. On the other side were two nuns. Mother was talking to me and writing a list of all the places she would go to in the coming years. Then suddenly she turned to me and said that she's sorry she can't be here to see the Feast of St. Steven, then left the room.
One of the nuns said to me that she knew she was going soon and showed me a piece of paper with what I think was a date on it. All I could make out was the letter J and a 4.
Then she leant accross to me and smiled. Her smile became hideously huge and gapped. When it did I looked in and could see pure space, like in the sky, and I realised I was looking at the face of death.
I woke up alone in the room and it was awful. I felt alone in the universe. I later looked up the feast of st. stephen as dec 25. The whole experience was so strong that I realised... I don't know, that I would make some change.
The next page, thankfully still online (and now backed up) is index2.html.