Interpretation: Marathon 50

Probably shows the time I really came last in the marathon. 

Beings I came close with this method I'll use it  instead of the market and I'll try to produce ethheric projections. I'll emit the body of light first. 

    Also upon awakening, before the I the ?breaths or affirmation, I'll rise into the air in my imagination, then do the base chakra in my astral body. That way if it's a false awakening I should go up in the air,  then be aware that I'm dreaming. Yep, that sounds perfect. One of the few times I've been fully lucid was when I woke up (false) and rose into the kitchen. 

    

12/2/91

Couldn't remember a dream this morning. I used the perfume and ?enlivened the neck. I fell asleep before I did the body of light though. 

Date: 13th February 1991 Snatchets 51

Mood Not good 2.8 Vividness 3.3

I was in the bath and had satellite link up on the Wogan show. 

    Then I was in a newsagents and bought some sweets and left a pound on the counter, which I then picked up.

    I was then in a record shop with Jason looking or an Iron Maiden record. 

    

Interpretation - The Wogan part shows I want to become publicly clean by giving up smoking. The newsagent shows me buying slimming sweets, hoping to lose pounds. The records means I hope to set a record. 

Note: Last night I did the perfume, meditation and body of light and woke up early a couple of times. I think it's mostly practice now. I'm doing yoga now. I'll learn to sit still for an hour, then do pranyayama, then do usual projections for ana hour. 

Date: Thursday 14th February 1991

Mood very low 1.9 Vividness 5.2

Fruit plan 62

There was a note hanging out my bedroom window. 

    I was in the lounge, and I found a diagram that had a type of ladder diagram, with pieces of fruit between each rung. Geoff said it was instructions for making a new country. He told me the pieces of fruit were designs for a new flat. I said no and told him it was a ?ccess formulary. I sat at the top rung there was a picture of a melon and I was really exited and ?pleased.

    

Interpretation Fruit Plan 52

I didn't do exercises and went to bed very drunk. Before that I was thinking of starting a business, but I couldn't find any bottles. When I woke up I'd been sent a catalogue selling bottles and fruit oils, both of which I need. The country probably shows I want something new. The adder's rungs sow the stages to my business plan. The melon is it coming up dividends. This is excellent.

15/2/91

I tried to ethheric project last night and was lying on my back while I did so. I did see the top corner roof the room after a couple of flashes of light, but had to turn on my side because of the pain and discomfort. I fell asleep again and couldn't remember my dream in the morning. Perhaps when I saw the corner of the room I should have tried moving over to the picture I was trying to see. 

AS I just wrote in my yoga diary I'm going to carry on lucid dreaming and when Oliver Fox's book comes I'll see what that says. I'll try ethheric projections every day and write down the time. Working every day soon or later it must work. 

    

Date: 18th February 1991

Mood bad 1.1 Vividness 7.8

53 Gardener

I was in bed and Darren came round and knocked on the bedroom door. I told him not to do it again. 

    Then I was with Mum and walking to her house. She told me that if I wanted to move she'd buy me some wine or a house. I got to the front door and it was chained and I opened it with my knee. I went throught into the lounge. There was a man working in the garden. I looked at a letter from the sorcerer's apprentice. It said something about them sending me something. The man from the garden came in and said the weather was nice, but was about to turn. I laughed and said we'll pay for it tomorrow. He said he had a son like me that never washed his hair. 

        One day he was supposed to go to school and he said no. He walked him if he wanted to learn history, and he said no and the father said who does he thinks he it? The boy just said, 'The king of _____ (forgot)'.

        Then I looked at some videos in the cabinet, and one told you about women's dreams and what you could learn from them. It had topics like money, status, sex etc. P put it back but it broke so I he'd it so no one could see I did it. 

        

Interpretation 54 Gardener

The first part says I didn't like ?children.

    The house shows I want to move, as does the fence. Don't know about the letter. The gardener show the rise aspect of me saying I paid for happiness since by sadness later. The history shows my ?? The hair shows I'm ruled my my feelings. The video shows what I gave up to follow the occult

    

Same day: I sent off letters to start off an occult supply business, bought stock etc. Also me and Jack decided we'll see if we want to go back to college. Tomorrow's the job club, so I'll write up what happened. 

Wednesday 20th February 1991

Mood OKish 5.1 Vividness 5.0

55 Re-union

I was looking into a Chinese shop but it was shut. A sign said in the chemists, back in a minute. A girl came out and asked if I wanted to go in (a girl from the chemists show owned the shop of course). I said no but went in later. We talked for a while and she was playing with a child. I told her I remember her years ago but playing with a different child. She said we had two. She kept giggling a lot. 

    Me, Darren and Jason went out looking for ages to find a flat and we were looking for some friends who were on drugs. When we got there a man said there were no flats for us because the young people were on drugs. 

    

A long time ago I saw a girl that came to speak to me but I walked away because was too body. Today I saw her at work and some time when I have time, I'll go and apologise. That's the first bit. 

    The second bit shows Jason saying I can move into his flat when he gets it. 

    

Note: I didn't do my lucid dreaming because I stayed up for the job club. We went by the way. First of all we couldn't find it and were 45 minutes late. Then they put on a two minute video to welcome us. The atmosphere was really awful. They gave us a piece of paper and told us to write down what was good about us. Jason wrote down punctual. I told him we have to leave, so we ran out. 

    At BHS we realised that we were 45 minutes late, stayed five minutes and left a piece of paper with 'punctual' on! Never again!

    

Date: Thursday 21st February 1991

Mood 5.2 Vividness 0.9

56 Chess

I was playing chess. 

Date: Friday 22nd February 1991

Mood 5.3 Vividness 5.4

57 Row

Louise and Geoff got into my bed and kept pushing me. I went downstairs and he'd left a note telling me what to do. He shouted at me from the kitchen. I went in the garden and an old woman told me I was ill and gave me some medicine and food. It was in a German cuppa that Geoff has in his room. She told me it was coffee. It was silver in colour (the medicine). 

Interpretation 57 Row

This shows a row I had with Geoff (We've now fell out). The old woman may be Ann and the medicine shows it will be healed. I may go away with Ann to get it sorted. 

Date: 3rd March 1991 (Monday)

Mood 5.1 Vividness 8.9

LUCID DREAM 58

I said to Jay would it be funny if Manny rung up the occult shop pretending he was Jason and the man knew telepathically. I was on the phone and I laughed so much I had to bend down. 

    Then we went upstairs and ?ate eastereggs.

    I was downtown with Jason looking into a room that used to be somewhere where music was played. There were spectators in the windows but they were so quiet you could hardly hear them. I plugged my headphones in and listened on them. Jason showed me an old photograph of Yorkshire in the 50s/60s. The view inside the photo kept panning around like a television camera. I looked at it and said, 'Camera's can't do that... I'M DREAMING!' Although it didn't feel like it, it felt like I was awake. I was back in bed and it felt like I was awake, it I knew I was asleep. I willed myself to rise into the air. I went up to the ceiling, then fell back down. 

    I woke up and looked for a pad but couldn't find one. Geoff was outside knocking to come in, then I woke up again!

    

Interpretation Lucid Dream 58

Don't know for sure. Perhaps it just means progress. 

Date: Sunday, 10th March 1991

Mood: OKish 4.3 Vividness 3.9

Photopark 59

I got lots of letters.

    Jason came round and we were going out for the day. We looked at some photos that we'd taken in Abingdon park. One had me walking near a policeman. We then went to the market and Jason saw a photo frame he liked. 

    

Interpretation Photopark 59

Perhaps just memories I've had with Jay. 

Date: Monday 11th March 1991

Mood 5.0 Vividness 3.8

Haircut 60

I went to have my hair cut and halfway throught the hairdresser walked out and I had to wait ages for him to come back, and even then he didn't finish it. 

Interpretation Haircut 60

Don't know

Date: 12th March 1991

Mood 5.1 Vividness 4.3

Past lives

I was with a Chinese girl and we stood together and went back in time, and I became all the people I've been previously. 

Interpretation

Past life acceptance/experience/recall.