    I was in bed in the kitchen looking down the garden. I started saying, when I dream I'll be aware that I'm dreaming. Then I asked myself if I was dreaming and I decided I probably was. I tried to rise to the air. I got up about five feet, slumped back and woke up.

    

Interpretation LUCID 40

I should think the first bit is about Annabel Sheeler. 

    With my lucid dreaming exercises I have to tell myself I'll dream I'll realise that I'm dreaming, then energised the chakras. I think this is the second time I've asked myself but the irst time I  said no. Tuesday I start the last part of the exercise, so I'll look forward to what happens!

    

Date: Tuesday 21st January 1991

Mood OK 5.0 Vividness 7.7

PRE-LUCID DREAM 41 +

A Chinese girl was showing me how to fight and said I must always concentrate on my opponent's forehead (the chakra which I visualise in the morning to lucid dream). Then I had one real awakening, then fell asleep. Then I had a false awakening where I did my breathing exercise but I'm fairly sure it was a dream. 

Interpretation - OPT

I'm definitely getting there. I think I'll start trying to fall back into a dream. Looking good?

    

Date: Thursday 24th January 1991

Mood 5.2 Vividness 7.0

Murder 42

I was at school and there was a fight and I killed someone. I ran down to the subway and made friends with a policewoman who didn't know it was me. We got to my house, and a neighbour pointed out that I was the murderer. I got arrested and looked in my bag to sort out my books. They took me to a mental hospital and I saw a man being thrown in a cell with lots of imbeciles. 

    Then I was in a room and Harry Secome was looking at some candles. 

    Then I was outside Barbara's house. Ann brought the dog out. Barbera asked me if I still liked him and I said no. She said it was because I was older and that was the trouble with buying children pets. Then a bitch came in ?astrally. It looked exactly like Robb. He jumped towards the owner who was really pleased that her dog had found a partner. 

    

Interpretation  Something I saw on TV earlier regurgitated. 

Not a lucid dream this time, but something's still happening I keep on waking up early and starting to do the exercise, then falling asleep again. 

I think this is a good omen. 

Date: Saturday 26th January 1990 [sic]

Mood OK 5.0 vividness 3.1

Power 43

I looked at the fusebox and it was smoking and there was a note there telling me not to charge any talismans. 

Interpretation: relevant to the book I'm now writing. 

Note: Before I had this dream I woke up and started to do my exercise, then fell asleep again. This is a regular occurrence; I think I'm supposed to fall into a dream. I'm going to buy a countdown times (or a watch with one off) 'cos I could do with one for the yoga I'm about to take up. I'll set it for ten minutes, theme visualise as I fall asleep. When I wake up I'll start it, do the breathing, do the affirmations, visualise, then set it again. When I wake up early (in theory) it should rouse me enough to actually ?awake up setting the timer, when I can properly fremember my dream and fall back into it. We'll see!

Date: Monday 28th January 1990

Mood OKishs 4.8 Vividness.2

Bastard 44

I came downstairs and all Geoff'sfriends werethereI I chucked one out and we all had a row. 

Interpretation. Ann's gone away again and Geoff will probably bring Louise back without her knowing. 

Ann bought me the watch when I told her about it. It has a countdown for when I fall asleep/wake up and hourly chime for my reality checks. I think it's just a matter of time to see if it works. 

Note: 30/01/91. No results yet. I think I'll construct a dream for the whole of today so that I look at something or am at a certain place. Every time my alarm goes off I'll ask if I'm in the created place, if so I'll be lucid, if not I'll carry on. As I fall asleep I'll visualize the scene, repeat a mantra and know I'm entering it. 

    I think I've often DREAMPT of the market and I'll try that, every time my hourly chime goes off I'll ask if I'm in the market. If not, I'll say tonight I'll dream of it and will know I'm there when I dream. 

    

31/1/91

Dreampt of a fishing ?float last night, poss fishing for a lucid dream? I'll only need one to get going, then the will for another will suffice. I had a bad day generally, then kept setting my timer as I was falling asleep so I could do my exercise, but I fell asleep without constructing the dream. Darren came round and was nasty and  think that was the last thing I was thinking about. I'll carry on the reality checks and affirmations today and really try tonight. I'll stay up late beings as Ann's back so I should be tired, which should make it easier. I'll write up what happens. I'm really trying now. 

Date: 1st FEbruary 1991

Mood OK 5.1 Vividness 5.3

Theatre 45

A Golden Dawn book (which I'm waiting for) came and I urinated in Geoff's bath before I went down to get it. 

    Then I was in the theatre and no one liked the play and walked out. 

    

Interpretation

The book is real. Theatre - play or one's own thoughts. Where your attention is. 

Interpretation. 

Maybe I don't like my book. 

Note: AGAIN I fell asleep without doing the exercise. Tonight (always an excuse!) I'll visualise the dream as soon as I get in bed FULL STOP.

2/2/91

Oh dear! I fell asleep again I didn't mean to! I just got in bed, then I woke up and it was morning so I'll have to try tonight. I've today seen in Prediction US tapes (imports) and one or astral travel, so that should be OK.I've been looking for a certain one for ages but I don't know if it's that one. I'll send for it whatever it's, but if it's not, I'll write and ask if they can get it Also, if I don't make it tonight then I'll try using perfume. I've perfumed a book that always makes me think of astral projection so I'll try it. 

Date: 3rd February 1991 46 Lennin

Mood OKish Vividness 4.9

I was in WH Smith and someone called me by the wrong name, so I left, after I'd hung a picture of Lennin of the wall. 

    Then I was in the market, but I can remember doing what. 

    Then I had headphones one and someone told me to change the pads or I'll ?go deaf. 

    

Note: 46 Lennin

I did do the exercise before I fell asleep last night. I also DREAMPT of the market but I'm fairly sure didn't trigger. I sign on tomorrow. So I'll try as usual tonight, then do perfume the night after. I've also sent for the original book that tells you how to do it and I'll look forward to that because the man who wrote the book I'm doing now started with that one. 

Date: Monday 4th February 1991

Mood OKish 4.9 Vividness 5.7

Semi LUCID 47

I was evicted from the place where I lived in my dream (Mum's house). I went out the house and saw a poster for lucid dreaming. It owed you all the things you could do. It had pictures of tattvas and said with practice you could learn to use them in an office. 

Interpretation semi LUCID 47

The getting evicted part is basic fact, I did this from Mum's house, to come here to learn lucid dreaming. The poster part of the dream tells me that mastery over lucid dreaming will lead to all four types of projection. 

I did the exercise  before I fell asleep. This definitely shows it's making some impact on my mind. I may buy a specific pad, then perfume it and try perfume tonight. 

     

Date: 5th February 1991

Mood OK 5.2 Vividness 4.8

?World Tarot Cards

I went in a pub with Jason and Gabbs.

    I was in the lounge and there were three packs of tarot cards, one Chinese, one Japanese and one from Thailand. I chose the one from Thailand. 

    

Interpretation - just fragments.

9th February 1991

Last night I perfumed this book with Abra-Melin oil. Then myself on the forehead, neck, wrists. I held my attention well on the market dream, but couldn't remember any dream when I woke up. I'll continue. The I Ching said it will work, but it must be done consciously every day and it'll only work occasionally to start with, but in the end good. I'll try again tonight. 

Interpretation - Poss I want a job d I've still got two letters to come back so maybe one's bad and ones good?

Note: I forgot the perfume and visualize but I did do the chakra. 

Date: Monday 11th February 1991

Mook OK 5.1 Vividness 7.3

Marathan 50

I was in the same stately home as yesterday and I was opening up lots of letters. 

    Then I was at school looking at an old school book with a girl that used to go there. In this book I'd kept a diary of the marathan where I'd came last. 

    

Note: When I went to bed I did the throat exercise and also used the perfume. Instead of using the market dream I visualised myself rising and then looking down on my body. As I was falling asleep I saw bright flash of light. I had a good couple of false awakenings. When I woke up I had eight letters waiting for me. That's what the first part meant. 