

I was out with a group of people and we were going parachuting. An Asian man I was with had ordered some food and another Asian man bought some ice cream. The one who ordered it didn't have enough money and the Asian man no. 2 said he's ten times as useless as he once was. I started swallowing the ten-pence pieces. 

Interpretation Ice Cream 30 

 

I've just finished a manuscript and I'm sending off ten copies +  letters so it means I'm taking in the experience which I value. Parachute shows taking the plunge.

Date Friday 14th December 1990

Mood OK 4.9 Vividness 7.4

Winds of Change 31

I got a load of parcels in the lounge and opened one and it was a rejection letter, but I carried on knowing I had so many that somewhere someone must be accepting it (my book). 

    Then I was out looking around shops and a young couple including Mark Kitchener (friend) asked me where the kitchen shop was (play on words). I showed him. 

    Then I was waking down an alley, and there were lots of doors/garages etc. When I got to the bottom I realised I was lost. A boy who sometimes turned into a dog (Dane Woodward - friend - Great dane?) showed my up another alley. It had less doors and it was now nighttime. People kept walking towards me and I shone a torch in their faces. I got back home, and it was day. I decided to give Dane some money for helping me. I saw my uncle (dead) trying to tow my car out the garage. He said he was a lot better off without me and wanted me to move out. I went in the house and Dane followed. Yasmine was there. I went to my bedroom and lay down. 

    

Interpretation Winds of Change 31

The first bit is just real. I was looking through letters for my book reply (I've written + sent one off). I was sure I'd get one published. In real life I'd hoping I do hope it's an optimistic note. 

    The next bit has two plays on words, looking around for a kitchen shows me looking for somewhere to live. Going down an alley shows I  was/am going the wrong way and a friend will lead me out (Jay). The torch bi shows not being afraid to face frightening things. When I was using it, it gave me a sense of power. Getting chucked out is because Ann said I'd in for a shock after Christmas, maybe it means It'll be told to leave. Very nasty. The house had all the people in I didn't want. Perhaps I'll want to go, possibly with book money, or is that jumping ahead?

    

Date: Wednesday 19th December 1990.

Mood OKIsh 5.0 Vividness 4.9

Ice School 32

I was going to Jay's house and I saw a group of people listening to a teacher. I sat down on a block of ice, but kept sliding off. A woman sat down and started telling me about ten something. 

Interpretation Ice School 32

Before I had this dream I was reading about the Kabbalah so the ten something is the ten spheres. Why the ice? I don't know. 

Date: December 25th 1990 (Christmas). 

Mood Low 3.2 Vividness 9.1

LUCID DREAM * 33

I was asleep on bed when I suddenly could see the ceiling, like I had holes cut into my eyelids. I imagined the ceiling getting nearer and nearer and I rose up out of my body. There was a really weird feeling over my physical body as I rose up. Once I was out I thought I won't go far. This first time I'll just go and see Geoff. I spun round and re-entered my body, knowing I can gradually increase the distances. 

    Then I was walking at the bottom of Bridge street and someone asked me the way to the market. 

    Then I was in the occult shop buying a load of jewellery, and someone asked me how much the dog collars were. 

    

Interpretation Lucid Dream 33

The bit not lucid shows me starting to live [unreadable]  life in the light of occult knowledge. The lucid dream comes when tomorrow I am going to start specific dream yoga to inspire lucid dreams. 

Date: Tuesday 1st January 1991

Last night was around the third night that I've been doing my lucid dreaming exercises. Once (the first) I was disturbed but every time I've done it I've not remembered my dreams. It may just be a phase. Last night I think I was in America with some kind of couple who were being divorced. I should be on the last exercise by mid Feb, so I should know by then. 

The exercises for clairvoyance are going VERY well. I'm seeing many things very clearly now and I can believe it when they come true. I'm not sure what will happen when the moon wanes. 

I did a ritual last night to help me get my book published and I'll look forward to that. 

Date: Jan 2nd 1991

Mood 4.7 Vividness 7.2 (RESULT)

I was at a restaurant dining with a family and I was eating a dish that consisted of ask called lotus flower. 

    Then I cooked something in the microwave and when I read the pack I saw you were supposed to put your own topping on. 

    Then I was in a German prisoner of war camp and there were three rows of three boxes. English soldiers jumped out and beat the Nazis. One of them looked  at me and shouted "That's it!"

    I went downtown and into a sweetshop to buy sweets to eat in the cinema. I couldn't make up my mind. When I got back Barara came round and asked me to go to the shops to buy her a choker. I asked Spatcher to go for me. We went outside and it was snowing. She ended up sending someone else anyway. (When we'd first come back from town the curtain was drawn and we felt depressed and that made it better. We'd played a game. It had made Darren feel worse, but Spatcher, better). We then went to Barbara's house who was mad that I didn't go to town for her choker but when I explained something to her she apologised and said that it would be OK. 

    

Interpretation Advice 34

The first part refers to the exercise which I've been doing before I fal asleep which will hopefully cause me to become lucid. The ash is experience and lotus is another name for Chakra. The family I was with was Chinese and the exercise is Tibetan. 

    Cooking is a way we transform ourselves, and I have to put my own topping on, means I must ultimately do it myself. 

    The 3x3 rows in the camp, I think, are calculator keys, the prison is my home. I use my calculator to work out how much I need to move out. When the man shouts this is it, it could mean move out now - or it could be  saying I'm dreaming. 

    The sweetshop and AGAIN choker show I want lucid dreaming. Having to go and get it prob. Shows I don't want to do it myself. Explaining it shows (I think) I'm doing it right. 

    

Above is the first dream I've remembered since starting the exercise. 

Date: Thursday 3rd January 1990. 

Mood Lowish 4.7 Vividness 4.3

Advocard 35

I was in the lounge making cocktails in bottles to sell to people and the colour was a little dark. 

Interpretation Advocard 35

I still had some advocaat left in my bedroom after Christmas so I cleaned it out. I should think this is what the dream meant. 

Date: Friday 4th January 1990

Mood OK 5.1 Vividness 6.1

School 36

I was in the kitchen and Geoff's friends came round and a light came on. I urinated in a tray. 

    I was then at a room talking on the phone about a job at a printshop. A woman hung up on me. 

    Then I was in the library. I saw a girl called Jane and Annabel was near me. 

    

Interpretation School 36

In my bedroom I've got a tray full of water which I burnt a candle in and I've forgot to empty it so the first part warns me about that. 

    The next bit is like when I sign on they may ask me what I've been doing to find work, this may be a warning. 

    The school part is probably reminising

    

Saturday 5th January 1990

Mood normal 5.0 Vividness 5.2

Celtic Clock 37

I got a load of presents. I opened them up and one was a Celtic alarm clock. 

Interpretation Celtic Clock 35

Don't know. Yes I do. This Christmas was so boring I'm going to celebrate Celtic New year etc. This dream shows last Christmas was my last Christmas. 

Saturday 12th January 1990

Mood OKish 4.9, Vividness 7.4

Detective 38

I was in the Grosvenor with Mum and she remarked on how happy and confident I seemed. A girl came up and told me there was a phone call from America for me. When I got to the phone it was someone who had taken a hostage. I was a detective. I then drank two advocards and something to eat. Someone had tipped wine in my advacard so I didn't drink it. I then had a flat pint of bitter and a pack of bacon crisps.  The bitter was in someone else's dirty glass. I then saw Simon with a ten pound note with silver glitter around the edge and I wondered if he was the kidnapper. Then I found out that the kidnap affair had been a joke. A woman was mad because she'd hit a dog that she'd thought had done it. 

This refers to the party that I had over Christmas. The hostage part means I was  pushed into it without really wanting it. I drank advocard but in reality I stopped and drank Jay's beer after he spiked it I'm not sure about Simon. I wasn't nice to him and the dog bit it's probably guilt feelings. 

Saturday 19th January 1990

Mood Hmmm 4.2 Vividness 3.8

Armadel 39

I was in the market looking for a Grimoire of Armadel, then I was in the occult shop and I saw he had a whole Grimoire section. 

Interpretation 39

I am actually looking for this book. Maybe it means I'll find it in the occult shop? There actually is a whole Grimoire section in real life. 

Date: Sunday 20th January 1991. 

Mood 4.3 Vividness 7.9

LUCID DREAM 40 *

I had a child by a girl called Anna who moved to Russia. I was going to ring her to see her but then I decided it wasn't worth it. 