﻿Date: Sunday 13th September 1990
Mood 5.1 Vividness 7.6
1 - Record Breaker

I looked out the window towards Barbara's house and I saw someone drinking ouch of a specimen bottle.
Then I was in the supermarket and there was a revolution going on there. I sent a woman solddddier to take the leader hostage. I was at school and I saw a girl I haven't seen for ages sand I realised I loved her. Then I went of of class and down ome stairs to a subway. There were some big bullys and I sat down because I didn't want to pass, so I sat down and Jason Spatched said I couldn't run away all my life.
    Then I was in a very large, old kind of pond, about 4/500 meters circumference. I I walked on a piece of mud and there was a waterfall to my right (only small). I walking in the water knee deep and waled to the other side, even though waly way through a ?twig came out the water at me, then ?retreated. I got to the other side and stopped at a sign that ??? I thought was the finish, but a man told me it wasn't, and to go round a bit. I did and then I saw the real finish sign. I thought now I'll be in the Guinness Book of World records, then I thought no I can't because it's estoric,c inside and I can't prove it. 
    
Interpretation.

Not sure about the urine part or the revolution. 
    The girl I was in love with and not passing the bully's show my two main mistakes in life to date. 
    The pool part is something inside, estoric that I can't prove, so it's almost definitely astral Projection. The pool is either the unconscious of the astral place, probably thee furmer me crossing it hopefully means success, not sure about the false end. 
    
All this could easily be right becuase a long time ago, 3-4 years, I dreamt of a Bastet cat goddess statue in connection with pastoral projection, and now, without realising, I've bought one. Also I had a dream telling me knowledge of the four elements would open some kind of door and I've just done Earth, starting last night. I dreamt of a summery of my past this time because it probably means a new start. 

Date: Sunday 23 September  1990
Moon 2.3 Vividness 1.9

I was walking past a bookshelf and I looked at a book called how to get things right. I carried on walking and went into a toilet. I saw a woman crying hysterically and people trying in vain to help her. I took over and took her home with me.e She lived in out garage. Ann came in to see what was happening and I told her nothing and she left. 

Interpretation

Not sure about this at all. 

Note: Above was a lucid dream attempt. 
When I go to bed I give myself the command to wake up with the idea of falling back into the dream. I'll have to see how that goes. Last night was the first attempt. 

Date: MOnday 24th September 1990
Mood 2.2 Vividness 2.1
Credit Card

I queud up in Sainburys and bought a credit card. Then I was home and Phil and Yasmine came in. Phil asked me where my new job was. I showed him a Sainsburys bag and he understood. Then I was at a cash dispeneser using my card, but the machine wasn't working. I realised I could punch in any amount I wanted. Then I realised I was spelling the word wrong (which I've now forgotten. 

Interpretation

This ai almost certainly about my lucid dream attempts. The card shows that which I wish to obtain. The ?bed also show what I want in the bag. The wrongly spelt word refers thus:- Before I go to bed each night I write down a command ?letting me wake up after my first dream, with the idea of continuing it with full consciousness. 
    Because in the dream my word was wrongly spelt, it's probably means I was a phrasing it wrong. Once in the dream I realised the R was missing. I knew I could have as much as I wanted. Also I think the command doesn't work now because I'm having trouble with my sleeping pattern, therefore it could work from Thursday morning. 
    
Date: Tuesday 25th September 1990

ASTRAL PROJECTION ATTEMPT

I've just been upstairs to do an astral projection attempt and I came VERY close. 
    I started about 3.30pm. Ann had gone to the hair dressers. I had been working on a book I am writing and researching about the elements. I lay down and spent about, just over a minute externalising the body of light. When I put myself if it I first made a single affirmation, then moved in. I kept awareness of the body of light, then turned both eyes outwards simultaneously. I kept looking down the BOL to it's feet and hands and moving them, then in front of me to the wall, than at my face. After a couple of minutes I felt my body lifting up and got disorientated. I felt VERY strong movement and I knew wI was close. 
    I think this carried on for about a minute. Afterwards y body (physical) had gone tense with excitement a and I think this had brought me back. This attempt was easily the best I have ever had. 
    I was very tired at the time and this may have had something to do with it. Singh the last new moon, on most attempts, my arms have felt very much that they were out y body. Si I have been lifting out a bit. I've got eight days to the full moon. So I think it will be interesting to see what will happen. 
    
Date: Wednesday 26th September 1990
Astral Projection

I did it again early morning and it wasn't as strong, but I had a pressing g need to go toilet. The feelings were quite strong and different than usual and the change of perspective is much more real now. I lost my concentration walkf easy through worrying about my poll tax summons. I did  occasionally feel as thought I was moving but soon lost t?thought. Apart from this s there is definite progress there. My dreams say so and now I'm sure it is coming true. 

Date: Thursday 27th September 1990
Mood 5.2 Vividness s7.4
Big Wheel 4

I was just going upstairs and a leteter came. I opened the door and there were different parcels. One way a massive six square foot picture. One was a golden dawn book and one was GD tarot cards. 
    Then I was walking home along the Kettering Road and I realised the four was here on the racecourse, with a massive fairground wheel. I went up close and had a look. I heareed a womer tell her children that in a fairground dyou can learn to see the elements. I went over to another tent and ordered dinner which was a roast and I sent to sit down. I saw a sign that said no smoking but a young boy started up. Then a young boy, who in the dream was my friend, told me to sit with him. He told me that UFO's were people being initiated but I didn't believe him. 
    
Interpretation. Big Wheel 4

The first bit about letters probably  means I'll actually get some because in waking like I'm waiting for their book. It may mean finding something out. 
     The gib wheel obviously shows the wheel of fortune. Noot sure about the elementals. Perhaps it just shows a general occult theme. The tent shows the moment in my life each month f eeling as thought I'm a different person. I think/hope operding food and waiting for it shows the substance about to come to me. The writing part shows me waiting for it. The smoking part is real. I was in a restaurant and a woman told me to stop. The UFT shows y initiation has taken place inside even thought I didn't recognise it. 
     
Same day, fell asleep again upstairs. 

5: Chocolate dream

I had a job seeelling tickets (unreadable) then I went in a shop to buy some chocolate, but I didn't dare get it because there were weird girls where it was. There was more chocolate on the counter and I thought about buying it, but it wasn't exactly what I wanted so I went out.
    I thought to myself theat there's another sweet shop only a few feet away so I'll go there. I started and woke up before I got there. 
    
Interpretation 5: Chocolate Dream

The ticket part shows the thing I most want, Astral Projection, the shop also shows the same desire, once again, the the same day I dram of food. Loast time I ordered it and waited for it. This time I went to a different shop to buy it. I'm not sure if this means I'll get it or nowt. If I hadn't have woke up for the first time my food would have come, the second time I could have bought it in another shop. So it probably shows things to come. 

Date: Same Day

ASTRAL PROJECTION

I just tried again and although I didn't have the VERY strong lifting out feeling, I did feel complete movement a few times and my arms felt strongly as though they were turned the wrong way around. This may be because when I'm trying to feel my way into the body I concentrated on the body's arms and trying to clench the fists. That possibly lifted my arms south more Ethan the rest of me. I think next time I'll try somehow to feel the whole of my body. 

Date: Friday 28th September 1990
Mood 3.1 Vividness 5.1
Lift 6

I went to a Japanese girls caravan and her sister came in and we all played together. 
    Then I was in a lift with loads of people. It wouldn't close because the people went right out the door and I wouldn't move. Then I got out and heard someone say I'd been stuck for 12 years. 
    
Saturday 29th September 1990
Mood 5.0 Vividness 7.6
Jungle Escape 7

I was reading my five year diary and saw it was made in 1929. I then went to the table and started reading about the occult in a book. I saw the tattvas and also the speres of the Tree of LIfe with the shapes cut out according to their umbers eg Yes or had nine sides. Then a punk girm came in after an Asian girlrwho were both followed by a family. So I called Ann and went upstairs. 
    Then I was in the Japanese Jungle and I was a soldier with other soldiers, and we had to get out. 
     We found a little murky river and all got in little boats and off we went. We were going along and were surrounded by floating leaves. Next time I looked we were all drifting on floating giant leaves. The vegetation was very dense. 
     Finally the foliage cleared and we were out in very wet fields sof farmland. We looked over the walls that enclosed us and it was wall soggy marxshland for as fast as I could see. 
     The I saw a house with another house nearby. We went there, about three of us, but some Japanese soldiers came with a Japanese woman and took her to the house. We all hid desperately. We got up and went to the other house. It was the other woman's children. They let us in and were really friendly. They gave me something to eat and some sandwiches for my friends. Weleft and I gave the woman my moonstone and told her it would bring her dreams. 
     
Interpretation. Jungle Escape 7

This dream comes on the day I'm going to make an independence talisman and I'm sure it'd talking about that. 
    The first bit is me researching exactly how to make it and showing it'd being made because I didn't like the family I@m now with. 
    The bit in the jungle probably shows life is sad jungle, but because eI'm a soldier I'd prepared to fight through it. The river gives a way out even though it'd difficult. The leaves show my talisman guiding me out (which is the best part of the dream). Everging from the jungle shows progress. Looking over the wall shows me elooking for a wayout and finding one. Hiding could mean hiding wither from Ann or from difficulties and the hospitality shows hopefully independence and the present shows giving of self to the new situation. 1929 reduces to 3, the number of Binah, the sphere I'd work in.
    
Date: Sunday 30th September 1990
Mood 5.2 ok Vividness 7.1
Birth/death 8

I was a waiter in a restaurant and someone (Ginger) asked me if a certain book about talismans worked and I told him I'd tried two already and they'd both worked. 
    Then I was with Brian and Mum and Brian was a farmer who had just beed ?unreadable. Some men rung up and asked me to a sk him if he could help with their lambs being born. 
    Johnathan Pine was in my lounge and he stole a pen and Ann bought another. She wrote a letter to Geoff. It wrote too thick and she didn't like it. I looked in a magazine and way an advertisment for a dinosaur exhibition on 27th September, poll October and I decided to go. 
    Then I was walking down the Kettering Road and Jason went to apply for a sewing job, but I needed through a crack and saw he didn't get it. 
    I carried on walking home with a  girl crying on my shoulder and I realised I was wearing a sad tee-shirt which could make it worse. 
    
Interpretation Birth/death 8

The first part comes the night after I make my talisman, y second one, that could show they will work. 
    The farmer part shows their work in making a death of old, birth of new situation. 
    The letter probably shows me asking Geoff for ana Astral Projection tape, which I asked him to get a minute ago, which he can do. Not sure about the dinosaur part or ?self, or the date. It'll have to wait for the 28th though. I think it was in September. I think perhaps the house part means me getting insight into Jason. I didn't know about the girl. 
    
Date: Tuesday 2nd October 1990
Mood OKish 4.7 Vividness 5.3
Help 9

I was in Geoff's body and he was in mine. 
    I was then walking across a field with someone and was looking for help. My friend dpointed to a bishop walking towards us and I asked him what I should do. 
    He directed me to a school. When I got there there was French graffiti all over the playground school with one English sentence which I can't remember.r 
    Then I was at home on the patio. I tried to get in the outhouse and sit down. Once in I realised wasps might get in so I tried to patch up the gaps in the door. When I realised I couldn't I tried to use magiuck to keep them out. Then I got out the outhouse and sat on the patio. I had a glass of blue cloudy liquid. A waskp flew in there and disappeared to the bottom. All the liquid started bubbling and swirling around and then the wasp/bee edrank it. All the liquid disappeared and the wasp grew/became fat with the extra volume of the liquid. 
    
Interpretation Help 9

The night I dermpt this I was worried about my poll tax summons to appear in court on Thursday. I'd been down to pay seven pounds of my one hundred and forty pounds bill. When I got there they said before I signed on, eene though I wasn't working, they considered me to be in full employment. Therefore I must pay the bill in full, or the baliffs would come of Friday.
    Te dream first of all shows me looking for help. The school shops the whole thing is a learning process. The French messages show the confusing, but there in an overriding message. 
    Me in the outhouse shows me hiding away and not being able to, even with the help of magick. When I come out it shows the irritation will make me grow, even with a better awareness of life. 
    
Date Thursday 4th October 1990
Mood OKish 5.0 Vividness 4.1
Shopping 10

I went to a shop to buy some new boots. At the counter I saw they were holey and the man said I would have to get them re-soled. So I left them.
    Then I was in the occult shop and I bought twenty pounds worth of parchment, put some photo frames on the counter and panted them. 
    
Date: Friday 5th October 1990
Mood 5.7 Vividness 6.8
River Crossing 11

I was in the kitchenn with Ann and Dion Fortune and Ann was mad, asking me what magickal wand I had made. She was frightened that it was too powerful, so she had called Dion Fortune to come and look at it. I got my fire want and show it it to Mrs. Fortune and she approved. Then (unreadable) wasp in a glass of drink [Note: this last sentence is written in subscript].
    Then I was going downtown with Jason and we were crossing the  road. It was really shsowy. I slipped and brought Jason down with me. We got up and crossed the road. Jason turned into Winston Churchill. We were going down some stairs and Winston had to sit down and I left him because he couldn't go on any longer. I got to the botom of the stairs and went out to a river. I crossed a rope bridge (just)) and got to a hut in the river. Then I walked down a pontoon. At the bathroom an Indian girl was waiting for me and I was about to cross on a boat which she was going to swin in front and tow. Before I got in I stopped her and upon sheeing how wide the river was I asked her if it was safe. 
    
Interpretation Shopping g10

This is very easy to do. The first part shows me being dissatisfied with my poll tax deand. The second says I'll buy something of worth from the occult shop and that day I bought the book for formation. 

River Crossing 11

The first part in the kitchen shows  the dream is connected to my occult life. The bit with the wasp shows learning from irritation once again except the liquid was white this time.     
    The road shows me falling for some ?unreadable and I bring Jason down with me. Perhaps it means when I first met him I got him into the occult without knowing much about it. Then we both crossed a road. I found a Golden Dawn book  and he found shamanism. Then he turned into Winston Churchill, meaning he became a stubborn old man. When it was time to go down, possibly ino the mind, but it must be better because it was so sunny at the bottom. He'd had enough and I'll have to leave him behind. 
    I got to the river and crossed to new experience and I'll meet a more ?estoric part of myself or the universe in the guise of the mystical INdian woman. This s mystical 'thing' will cross me over a river to a new foreign ?estoric/exoti life experience and I may hesitate. 
    
Date: Sunday 7th October 1990
Mood 5.2 Vividness [unstated[
Jew 12

I was in a Jewish hall writing a book with a friend. I drew a picture of her (Annette Baker). 
    Then I looked over a lake and saw people using. One man had a line with many different baits on it and he showed me. 
    Then I was hiding behind a police car with a friend and the police were looking for me. I gave myself up 
    
Interpretation Jew 12

The bit in the Jewish place shows writing a book and expressing myself. The lake shows the possiblity for deep insights to come through. 
    The police shows doing what's right. 
    
Date: Tuesday 8th October 1990
Mood 5.3 Vividness 7.4

Walker 13

I was in a car with Mum driving. She was going to the airport to pick up Geoff's friend who in real like is sin America looking for a tape I want to help me Astrally project. She dropped me off at a forest and said she'd come back when she got it/him. I walked into the trees and went a little way, then turned to come back on the road. On the way I saw a ball balanced on a bush. I had thrown there earlier, like a few days ago. Then I was back on the road. I was at a crossroads. To my left a woman went before me a man went. I realised whenever someone went too far the forest rangers would come and pick them up. I saw between the two roads three was a very steep hill with an old iron fence by it covered with trees. [Note: there's a hand drawn map here].
    I used  the fence to pull myself it. It was very steep indeed. When I got to the top after almost falling a couple of times I was VERY high, on a kind of bridge, which went over the water. A voice inside told me to get down I could go the way I came, jump on the ground or jump in the river. I looked down and didn't dare do either. THen I became aware of my body in bed, while still seeing myself on the bridge. I realised I was dreaming and couldn't be hurt because my body was safely in bed at home. I thought what I should do and decided to open my eyes and wake up, which I did. 
    
Interpretation Bridge 13

The first part shows next Sunday. Geoff's friend should be back with my tape about astral projection. Mother leaves me in a forest of my unconscious where I go into it, then have to come out which I think, including the ball a the top of the bush, is my goal and awareness of it. 
    Then I come to a crossroads where I had to make a choice. I decided to pick the hard route of Astral projection. After a period of hard work I got to the bridge between the conscious and the unconscious. There I realised nothing can hurt me in my inner forest because eI am also at home in ed. It will be winter eating to see if Geoff's friend can find the tape. 
    
Date: Wednesday 9th October 1990
Mood 4.5 (HEADACHE) Vividness 4.3
Spirit 14

I saw a dead wasp. 
    Then I went in the occult shop and saw my slimming drink, but it wasn't the same make as I like so I didn't buy it. 
    Then I went to a spiritualist meeting. There was a computer on the platform. A dead person was speaking to relatives through the computer. A woman gave me a brass bowl to look after until next time I came. 
    Then I was somewhere and I threw a knife into the brass bowl.
    Then I was in a cafe and Darren remarked on my bowl having holes in it. 
    
Interpretation Spirit 14

Not sure, perhaps I'll see through something. 

Date: Saturday 121th October 1990

Astral Projection

I was almost lifted out again. Not as much as last time. Also, I was on my own again like last time. Ann was next door. I think I've got the trick of feeling my way into the body now. Geoff says my tape won't be here until next Saturday now. I wonder what that means (the dream?). 

Same day. Dream 

Ear Cleaner 15

I was at school in a classroom being touchy by a giant cotton ?tool stick that you usually clearn your ears with. I looked at it seething with anger. I got up and walked towards it. It ran off out the classroom. I went to go home but as I left the classroom my legs turned heay and I couldn't walk. I realised I was dreaming and flew out the school and circled it in the air. 

I terpretation 15

It means I didn't want to listen at school. Almost LUCID. 

Date: MOnday 14th October
Mood bad 1.2 (row). Vividness 3.4
Fog Alley 16

I was walking down the alley with Jason and putting cigarette packets on the floor rat the back of each door. When I got home John Lovette was there and I had a row with Ann. 

Interpretation Fog Alley 16

I'd had a massive row with Ann before I went to bed. The ciggerrette shows because I smoke and she buys them. I find it difficult to leave. John at home shows the situation has occult significance. 

Same day: Astral Projection

I think I've found a new way of trying. ONce ein the body of light, I feel my feet up to my head, slightly moving the ??? My way in. Then look through my eyes in the ehope they'll pen. I did this today for five times. I'll carry on increasing by five each day. 

Date: Thursday 17th October 1990
Mood OK 5.2 Vividness 5.3

Shark Attack 17

I was on a ship/submarine and a shark came next to the boat. I ?prossed a bomb and blew it up. Then I was on deck and Ipressed a button that let all the guns out and the captain told me off. 

Interpretation Shark attack 17

I think I'll get rid of something in my subconscious and another part of me wont like the ?defences.

Date: Friday 26th October 1990
Mood OK 5.2 Vividness 6.7
Years Ago. 18. 

I had a kind of market stall with canvas over it and it resembled a tent. I was eating my dinner while reading a cookbook. Then I hung stolen cocktails on a line to sell them. Two people who were running the stall with me came back and said the police were oing so I hid the cocktails. The police came and I got done. I looked out and it was pouring with rain. I saw my brother who in the dream ran away years ago. I sat and looked at my pentacle and some of the paint had chipped off. I told Geoff he was never generous. 

Interpretation Years Ago 18

This shows muym + dad used to have a market stall. As bad as it was it was a learning experience. When I looked at the pentacle eI realised it looked better without paint. So it didn't bother me. This shows getting rid of fstuf I don't need. 

Same Day. Astral Projection. 

I'm still trying as usual. I've got a new book that basically says the same as others, except if you do it when you're falling asleep you'll go into the hypnogogic period, then wake up in the body of light. My sleeping patterns out in a while. I sign on on Monday so I;'ll be sleeping normally Tuesday night/Wednesday morning and I'll start trying then. 

Geoff's friend came back from the States and couldn't ind the tape. So in the dream Mum went off and didn't come back, then I realised I was free. So hopefully it means I'll do it without it (Dream Walker 13)

Date: Sunday 28th October 1990
Mood OK 5.1 Vividness 4.8
Hospital 19

I was in hospital and I saw a nurse chucking a chemical down the sink. Another nurse came in and shouted at her because she wasn't supposed to. 
    Then I was at school with other kids and I didn't likem  the ?system, so I told them home to start a revolution. I was naked so I told them to wait while I put some clothes on, even though I wasn't embarrassed. 
    
Interpretation. Hospital 19.

I think it just goes beck to me rebelling at school I had to stay in hospital once and when I got out I was never the same. Me being naked shows sit felt natural for me at the time. 

Date: Tuesday 30th October 1990
Mood OK 4.7 Vividness 3.7
Little Alients 20.

I was in the garage and threw was all sorts of little lights around me. I realised they were UFO's and they didn't necessarily have to be big to be aliens. 

Interpretation Little Aliens 20

Date: Wednesday 31st October 1990 (Halloween!)
Mood OK 5.1 Vividness 5.6
In Charge 21

I pricked myself with a needle and wondered if I'd caught aids. 
    Then I was a director making a film. I was supposed to know what I was doing and everyone assumed I did, but I was supposed to plug gin some leand and I didn't know where they went. 
    Then in the same place I was suddenly a trainee doctor and I had to give an injection. I went to get the drugs which was a bottle of ear drops and the man charged  me ten pounds. I was really mad. Then when I paid the tene pounds I was at home and the money ?had placed a abet for e. I looked dat my betting slip and the horses name was Pay Toll, it was four to one and I thought I may pay in twenty pounds (somehow). 
    
Interpretation IN Charge 21

Making the filmm is life EIN general, my own ?time.  People sexpenct me to know what to do when I don't. The doctor is resp;onsibility and the injection of drugs is paying something I done want to. Pay toll means poll tax. The slip means it (for some reason) was better paid. 

Same Day. Astral Projection.

I've had trouble with y sleeping pattern again but I think I'm OK now. I'll try my sleep idea hopefully from tonight. 

Date: Monday November 5th 1990 (fireworks night).
Mood OK 5.3 Vividness 7.8
Away from School 22

I was back at Mum's house and I said hallo to Brian. They oth went out and I walked around. I looked in the fridge and there was lots of food there but it wasn't for me. It was n plastic bags ready for a party. Then I went outside into the dark. It slid downhill and bumped into a car but it didn't damage it. I had to push it up. The handbrake didn't work. 
    Then I was back at school in the gym. I was running round. I sat with Christopher, then John McCork, Harvey Wig fall sat opposite us. He gave John a piece eof paper with ?Schiller bow in it and The Schiller was a bundle of money, they used it instead of currency. It was illegal. Me and Harvey left and I told him about the time a girl wanted me and I said no. As sI left the doorway O looked in a catalogue that contained products, t apes sand the likes, to help you lucid dream. WE went out and met Carl Brant. He was working as a traffic warden and I was surprised. They asked me if I wanted to hang about with them I hesitated because I had bought some books to work on m own book that I'm writing, but I did. We went and sat in the part and Harley used the Schiller notee to buy us all a hamburger. 
    Then I woke up and wrote my dream down, then I woke up for real and really wrote it down. 
    
Interpretation Away From School 22

The bit at Mum's house shows her energy was directed to other people because the food wasn't for me. The car going back and crashing shows a nervous breakdown and me slowly ?clawing my way back. 
    Being at school probably shows just that and the counterfeit money probably shows I felt cheated of the time I was there. I told him about the girl which I spurred which is true and it was as I was leaving reading a catalogue of the occult/lucid dreaming meaning I chose mystical experience instead of the girl. My surprise at Carl probably meant surprise at how wasted and dead most of the people I was at school with seem to me now. We hung about and Harvey bought hamburgers with the counterfeit money I got when at schoolk meaning things I missed up on at school pays dividends. I then had a false awakening, showing mystical experience. 
    
Date: Tuesday November 6th 1990
Mood OK 5.2 Vividness  6.1
Fishing 23

I was walking along a beach and I got into the water. My friends enclosed a net around me. I got some frogs spawn and dropped it in the water. There were big fish and little fish. The little fish came up for the bait and I put them in a separate tank. 
    Before this I was at school and a girl wanted me but I didn't want her to see me because I was unshaven. I looked on the blackboard and it was covered with figures called Ballistic voodoo. My friend told me there was 72 figures/squares,  one for each tarot card. 
    
Interpretation - Fishing 23

The fish bit means acquiring something because I was glad when I caught them.
    The bit in school is the same girl as yesterday. I see her sometimes but hid because I look so weird. This is what happened here. I looked at the board and my interest was again in Kabbalistic things. 
    
Date: Wednesday November 7th 1990
Mood dOK 5.2 Vividness 8.8

LUCID DREAM

I first DREAMPT I woke up and heard someone downstairs in the kitchen. Then I realised I was dreaming. I sat up and thought I was awake, then I thought this was a false awakening. I sat up again, then again, then realised I was still dreaming. I rose in the air and landed by the door. Then I rose again back in my body, very good. 

Date: Friday 9th November 1990.
Mood OK 5.1 Vividness 4.9
[Unreadable] 25

I was standing at a bus stop and the police arrested someone. They took me as well accidentally and as they drove off I was made to stick my arm out of the window.

Interpretation 25 Arrested

Repeat of something I saw on television. 

Date: Saturday 10th November 1990
Mood 5.3 Vividness 5.0
Fireworks 26

I was on a beach and there was a shark in the water. I went up on a massive pier/jetty that weneet about a mile out in the  water and two hundred feet in the air. When I got to the end I jumped in and swam back. 
    I was at home and it was fireworks night. Geoff had all the lights on so I turned othemm off. Geoff went to a party. 
    Me and Gary Wearing were out and looking for somewhere to stay. He ?[unreadable] a tent but we didn't stay there. 
        Then he tried to run away for a joke and I found him. Then we went to watch American football. 
        
Interpretation Fireworks 26

The first bit shows going into some kind of danger voluntarily. The second bit shows Geoff gets on my nerves. 
    Don't know about the last bit. 
    
Note: Before I went to bed I was in the lounge and I told myself to wake up there, but I fell asleep before I couldproject properly. I'll have to try again, but soon I must change my selling pattern because I'm signing on again. 

Date: Sunday 13th November 1990
Mood 4.5 Vividness 0.5
LUCID DREAM 27

I can't remember what I dreamt last night but I definitely asked myself if fI was dreaming. 

Date: Tuesday 20th November 1990
Mook OK 5.0 Vividness 3.7

I was in school following everybody in a bustle through the corridors. Then I broke away with two others. We went down into a cellar and there I looked in a box. I saw a game that worked, two that didn't and a calculator that didn't have a percentage button. The game that did work had little men that you had to move up a mountain. Then a teacher came in and was mad because eI wasn't supposed to be there. They took me to the dheadmaster and he was drawing out a certificate for something when his pen blotted all over it and he he screwed it up.

Interpretation Paperback writer 28

The school bit shows ordinary life. I go the the cellar means at  the moment I've broken away and am writing a book to let people better themselves, hence the game where people go up. I'm using Geoff's calculator to add up the words and it doesn't have a percentage key. The headmaster is probably a publisher. If I get a letter of acceptance I'm going to put it in a dind of scrap book and I don't know what the blot means. 

Date: Thursday 22nd November 1990
Mood 4.3 Vividness 7.2
?Sumo Girls ?29

I was at home and Geoff's friend tipped a load of rubbish o the floor and said he was an art student and he had to sort something out of all the rubbish. Geoff + him left after telling me to do it for him. I went outside and walked downtown. As I was near Nostaligia (a shop) I saw a man tell his daughter he sed to come here to look at  the cemetery and he was going to show her now. When I got near  the occult shop I saw Kevin Richards and Niel 'o' Dell (school friends). I asked if they were on drugs because I was sa doctor and they told me they were just drunk. We then all decided to spend the day together. WE went in a shop that was called Japanese Girl track sumo wrestling or something. Wee went in and all paid three pounds for tickets. Niel got one green one and me and Kevin got two black ones.s We went in and there was a sofa with three/four girls on. ONe laughed and looked dembarrassed. She said to the sumo track bit was a a cover and it really meant we'd paid to make love on the tracks. Outside was a railwayu. Neil looked out, turned and said, 
    "Oh Shit, there's another one eout here painting the track green!" I laughed and when I woke up I was still laughing. 
    
Date: 4th December 1990
Mood OK 4.6 Vividness 5.4
Ice cream 30

I was out with a group of people and we were going parachuting. An Asian man I was with had ordered some food and another Asian man bought some ice cream. The one who ordered it didn't have enough money and the Asian man no. 2 said he's ten times as useless sas he once was. I started swallowing then pence pieces. 

Interpretation Ice Cream 30 
 
I've just finished a manuscript and I'm sending off ten copies +  ;;etter, so it means I'm taking in the experience which I value. Parachute shws taking the plunge.

Date Friday 14th jDecember 1990
Mood OK 4.9 Vividness 7.4
Winds of Change 31

I got a load of parcels in the lounge and opened one and it was a rejection letter, but I carried on knowing I had so many that somewhere someone must be accepting it (my book). 
    Then I was out looking around shops and a young couple including Mark Kitchener (friend) asked me where the kitchen shop was (play on words). I showed him. 
    Then I was waking down and alleyand there were lots of doors/garages etc. When I got to the bottom I realised I was lost. A boy who sometimes turned into a dog (Dane Woodward - friend - Great dane?) showed my up another alley. It had less doors and it was now nighttime. People kept walking towards me and I shone a torch in their faces. I got back home  and it was day. I decided to give Dane some money for helping me. I saw my uncle (dead) trying to tow my car out the garage. He said he was a lot better off without me and wanted me to move out. I went in the house and Dane followed. Yasmine was there. I went to my bedroom and lay down. 
    
Interpretation Winds of Change 31

The first bit is just real. I was looking through letters for my book reply (I've written + sent one off). I was sure I'd get one published. In real life I'd hoping I do hope it'd an optimistic cnote. 
    The next bit has two plays on words, looking around for a kitchen shows me looking for somewhere to live. Going down an alley shows I  was/am going the wrong way and a friend will lead me out (Jay). The torch bi shows not being afraid to face frightening things. When I was using it, it gave me a sense of power. Getting chucked out is because Ann said I'd in for a shock after Christmas, maybe it means It'll be told to leave. Verynasty. The house had all the people in I didn't want. Perhaps It'll want to go, possibly with book money, or is that jumping ahead?
    
Date: WEdnesday 19th December 1990.
Mood OKIsh 5.0 Vividness 4.9
Ice School 32

I was going to Jay's house and I saw a group of people listening to a teacher. I saawt down on a block of ice, but kept sliding off. A woman sat down and started telling me about ten something. 

Interpretation Ice School 32

Before I had this dream I was reading about the Kabbalah so the ten something is the ten spheres. Why the ice? I don't know. 

Date: December 25th 1990 (Christmas). 
Mood Low 3.2 Vividness 9.1

LUCID DREAM * 33

I was asleep on bed when I suddenly could see the ceiling, like I had holes cut into my eyelids. I imagined the ceeiling getting nearer and nearer and I rose up out of my body. There was a really weird feeling over my physical body as I rose up. Once eI was out I thought I won't go far. This first time I'll just go and see Geoff. I spun round and re-entered my bodym knowing I can gradually increase the distances. 
    Then I was walking at the bottom of Bridge street and someone asked me the way to the market. 
    Then I was in the occult shop buying a load of jewelry and someone asked me how much the dog collars were. 
    
Interpretation Lucid Dream 33

The bit not lucid shows me starting to live [unreadable]  life in the light of occult knowledge. The lucid dream comes when tomorrow I am going to start specific dream yoga to inspire lucid dreams. 

Date: Tuesday 1st January 1991

Last night was around the third night that I've been doing my lucid dreaming exercises. Once (the first) I was disturbed but every time I've done it I've not remembered my dreams. It may just be a phase. Last night I think I was in America with some kind of couple who were being divorced. I should be on the last exercise by mid Feb, so I should know by then. 

The exercises for clairvoyance are going VERY well. I'm seeing many things very clearly now and I can believe it when they come true. I'm not sure what will happen when the moon wanes. 

I did a ritual last night to help me get my book published and I'll look forward to that. 

Date: Jan 2nd 1991
Mood 4.7 Vividness 7.2 (RESULT)

I was at a restaurant dining with a family and I was eating a dish that consisted of ask called lotus flower. 
    Then I cooked something in the microwave and when I read the pack I saw you were supposed to put your own topping on. 
    Then I was in a German prisoner of war camp and there were three tows of three boxes. English soldiers jumped out and beat the Nazis. One of them looked  at me and shouted "That's it!"
    I went downtown and into a sweetshop to buy sweets to eat in the cinema. I couldn't make up my mind. When I got back Barara came round and asked me to go to the shops to buy her a choker. I asked Spatcher to go for me. We went outside and it was snowing. She ended up sending someone else anyway. (When we'd first come back from town the curtain was drawn and we felt depressed and that made it etter. We'd played a game. It had made Darren feel worse, but Spatcher, better). We then went to Barbara's house who was mad that I didn't go to town for her choker but when I explained something to her she apologised and said that it would be OK. 
    
Interpretation Advice 34

The first part refers to the exercise which I've been doing before I fal asleep which will hopefully cause me to become lucid. The ash is experience and lotus is another name for Chakra. The family I was with was Chinese and the exercise is Tibetan. 
    Cooking is a way we transform urselves and I have to put my own topping on, means I must ultimately do it myself. 
    The 3x3 rows in the camp, I think, are calculator keys, the prison is my home. I use my calculator to work out how much I need to move out. When the man shouts this is it, it could mean move out now - or it could be  saying I'm dreaming. 
    The sweetshop and AGAIN choker show I want lucid dreaming. Having to go and get it prob. Shows I don't want to do it myself. Explaining it shows (I think) I'm doing it right. 
    
Above is the first dream I've remembered since starting the exercise. 

Date: Thursday 3rd January 1990. 
Mood Lowish 4.7 Vividness 4.3
Adcocad 35

I was in the lounge making cocktails in bottles to sell to people and the colour was a little dark. 

Interpretation Advocard 35

I still had some advodard left in my bedroom after Christmas so I cleaned it out. I should think this is what the dream meant. 

Date: Friday 4th January 1990
Mood OK 5.1 Vividness 6.1
School 36

I was in the kitchen and Geoff's friends came round and a light came on. I urinated din a tray. 
    I was then at a room talking on the phone about a job at a printshop. A woman hung up on me. 
    Then I was in the library. I saw a girl called Jane and Annabel was near me. 
    
Interpretation School 36

In my bedroom I've got a tray full of water which I burnt a candle in and I've forgot to empty it so the first part warns me about that. 
    The next bit is like when I sign on they may ask me what I've been doing to find work, this may be a warning. 
    The school part is probably reminising
    
Saturday 5th January 1990
Mood normal 5.0 Vividness 5.2
Celtic Clock 37

I got a load of presents. I opened them up and one was a Celtic alarm clock. 

Interpretation Celtic Clock 35

Don't know. Yes I do. This Christmas was so boring I'm going to celebrate Celtic New year etc. This dream shows last Christmas was my last Christmas. 

Saturday 12th January 1990
Mood OKish 4.9 jVividness 7.4
Detective 38

I was in the Grosvenor with Mum and she remarked on how happy and confident I seemed. A girl came up and told me there was a phone call from America for me. When I got to the phone it was someone who had taken a hostage. I was a detective. I then drank two advocards and something to eat. Someone had tipped wine in my advacardo so I didn't drink  it. I then had a flat pint of bitter and a pack of bacon crisps.  The bitter was in someone else's dirty glass. I then saw Simon with a ten pound note with silver glitter around the edge and I wondered if he was the kidnapper. Then I found out that the kidnap affair had been a joke. A woman was mad because she'd hit a dog that she'd thought had done it. 

This refers to the party that I had over Christmas. The hostage part means I was  pushed into it without really wanting it. I drank advocard but in reality I stopped and drank Jays beer after he spiked it I'm not sure about Simon. I wasn't nice to him and the dog bit it's probably guilt feelings. 

Saturday 19th January 1990
Mood Hmmm 4.2 Vividness 3.8
Armadel 39

I was in the market looking for a Grimoire of ARmadel, then I was in the occult shop and I saw he had a whole Grimoire section. 

Interpretation 39

I am actually looking for this book. Maye it means I'll find it in the occult shop? There actually is a whole Grimoire section in real life. 

Date: Sunday 20th January 1991. 
Mood 4.3 Vividness 7.9
LUCID DREAM 40 *

I had a child by a girl called Anna who moved to Russia. I was going to ring her to see her but then I decided it wasn't worth it. 
    I was in bed in the kitchen looking down the garden. I started saying, when I dream I'll be aware that I'm dreaming. Then I asked myself if I was dreaming and I decided I probably was. I tried to rise to the air. I got up about five feet, slumped back and woke up.
    
Interpretation LUCID 40

I should think the first bit is about Annabel Sheeler. 
    With my lucid dreaming exercises I have to tell myself I'll dream I'll realise that I'm dreaming, then energised the chakras. I think this is the second time I've asked myself but the irst time I  said no. Tuesday I start the last part of the exercise, so I'll look forward to what happens!
    
Date: Tuesday 21st January 1991
Mood OK 5.0 Vividness 7.7
PRE-LUCID DREAM 41 +

A Cjomese gor; was showing me how to fight and said I must always concentrate on my opponent's forehead (the chakra which I visualise in the morning to lucid dream). Then I had one real awakening, the fell asleep. Then I had a false awakening where I did my breathing exercise but I'm fairly sure it was a dream. 

Interpretation - OPT
    'M definitely getting there. I think I'll start trying to fall back into a dream. Looking good?
    
Date: Thursday 24th January 1991
Mood 5.2 Vividness 7.0
Murder 42

I was at school and there was a fight and I killed someone. I ran down to the subway and made friends with a policewoman wh didn't know it was me. We got to my house eand a neighbour pointed out that I was the murderer. I got arrested and looked in my bag to sort out my books. They took me to a mental hospital and I saw a man being thrown in a cel with lots of I'm belies. 
    Then I was in a room and Harry Secome was looking at some candles. 
    Then I was outside Barbara's house. Ann brought the dog out. Barbera asked me if I still liked him and I said no. She said it was because I was older and that was the trouble with buying children pets. Then a bitch came in ?astrally. It looked exactly like Robb. He jumped towards the owner who was really pleased that her dog had found a partner. 
    
Interpretation  Something I saw on TV earlier re-gurgitated. 

Not a lucid dream this time, but something's still happening I keep on waking up early and starting to do the exercise, then falling asleep again. 

I think this is a good omen. 

Date: Saturday 26th January 1990 [sic]
Mood OK 5.0 iviness 3.1
Power 43

I looked at the fusebox and it was smoking and there  was a note there telling me not to charge any talismans. 

Interpretation: relevant to the book I'm now writing. 

Note: Before I had this dream I woke up and started to do my exercise, then fell asleep again. This is a regulor occurrence, I think I'm supposed to fall into a dream. I'm going to buy a countdown times (or a watch with one off) 'cos I could do with one for the yoga I'm about to take up. I'll set it for ten minutes, theme visualise as I fall asleep. When I wake up I'll start it, do the breathing, do the affirmations, visualise, then set it again. When I wake up early (in theory) it should rouse me enough to actually ?awake up setting the timer, when I can properly fremember my dream and fall back into it. We'll see!

Date: Monday 28th January 1990
Mood OKishs 4.8 Vividness.2
Bastard 44

I came downstairs and all georr's friends werethereI I chucked one out and we all had a row. 

Interpretation. Ann's gone away again and Geoff will probably bring gLouise ack without her knowing. 

Ann bought me the watch when I told her about it. It has a countdown for when I fall asleep/wake up and hourly chime for my reality checks. I think it's just a matter of time to see if it works. 

Note: 30/01/91. No results yet. I think I'll construct a dream for the whole of today so that I look at something or am at a certain place. Every time my alarm goes off I'll ask if I@m in the created place, if so I'll be lucid, if not I'll carry on. As I fall asleep I'll visualize the scene, repeat a mantra and know I'm entering it. 
    I think I've often DREAMPT of the market and I'll try that, every time my hourly chime goes off I'll ask if I'm in the market. If not, I'll say tonight I'll feam of it and will know I'm there when I dream. 
    
31/1/91
Dreampt of a fishing ?gloat last night, poss fishing for a lucid dream? I'll only need one to get ooing, then the will for another will suffice. I had a bad day generally, then kept setting my timer as I was falling asleep so I could do my exercise, but I fell asleep without constructing the dream. Darren came round and was nasty and  think that was the last thing I was thinking about. I'll carry on the reality checks and affirmations today and really try tonight. I'll stay up late beings as Ann's back so I should be tired, which should make it easier. I'll write up what happens. I'm really trying now. 

Date 1st FEbruary 1991
Mood OK 5.1 Vividness 5.3
Theatre 45

A Golden Dawn book (which I'm waiting for) came and I urinated in Geoff's bath before I went down to get it. 
    Then I was in the theatre and no one eliked the play and walked out. 
    
Interpretation

The book is real. Theatre - play or one's own thoughts. Where your attention is. 

Interpretation. 

Maybe I don't like my book. 

Note: AGAIN I fell asleep without doing the exercise. Tonight (always an excuse!) I'll visualise the dream as soon as I get in bed FULL STOP.

2/2/91

Oh dear! I fell asleep again I didn't mean to! I just got in bed, then I woke p and it was morning so I'll have to try tonight. I've today seen in Prediction US tapes (imports) and one or astral travel, so that should be OK.I've been looking for a certain one for ages but I don't know if it's that one. I'll send for it whatever it's, but if it's ot I'll write and ask if they can get it Also, if I don't make it tonight then I'll try using perfume. I've perfumed a book that always makes me think of astral projection so I'll try it. 

Date: 3rd February 1991 46 Lennin
Mood OKish Vividness 4.9

I was in WH Smith and someone called me by the wrong name, so I left, after I'd hung a picture of Lennin of the wall. 
    Then I was in the market, but I can remember doing what. 
    Then I had headphones one and someone told me to change the pads or I'll ?go deaf. 
    
Note: 46 Lennin

I did do the exercise before I fell asleep last night. I also DREAMPT of the market but I'm fairly sure didn't trigger. I sign on tomorrow. So I'll try as usual tonight, then do perfume the night after. I've also sent for the original book that tells you how to do it and I'll look forward to that because the man who wrote the book I'm doing now started with that one. 

Date: Monday 4th February 1991
Mood OKish 4.9 Vividness 5.7
Semi LUCID 47

I was evicted from the place where I lived in my dream (Mum's house). I went out the house and saw a poster for lucid dreaming. It owed you all the things you could do. It had pictures of tattvas and said with practice you could learn to use them in an office. 

Interpretation semi LUCID 47

The getting eviced part is basic fact, I did this from Mum's house, to come here to learn lucid dreaming. The poster part of the dream tells me that mastery over lucid dreaming will lead to all four types of projection. 
     D do the exercise  before I fell asleep. This definitely shows it's making some impact on my mind. I may buy a specific pad, then perfume it and try perfume tonight. 
     
Date 5h February 1991
Mood OK 5.2 Vividness 4.8
?World Tarot Cards

I went in a pub with Jason and Gabbs.
    I was in the lounge and there were three packs of tarot cards, one Chinese, one Japanese and one from Thailand. I chose the one from Thailand. 
    
Interpretation - just fragments.

9th February 1991

Last night I perfumed this book with Abra-Melin oil. Then myself on the forehead, neck, wrists. I held my attention well on the market dream, but couldn't remember any dream when I woke up. I'll continue. The I Ching said it will work, but it must be done consciously every day and it'll only work occasionally to start with, but in the end good. I'll try again tonight. 

Interpretation - Poss I want a job d I've still got two letters to come back so maybe one's bad and ones good?

Note: I forgot the perfume and visualize but I did do the chakra. 

DAte: Monday 11th February 1991
Mook OK 5.1 Vividness 7.3
Marathan 50

I was in the same stately home as yesterday and I was opening up lots of letters. 
    Then I was at school looking at an old school book with a girl that used to go there.e IN this book I'd kept a diary of the marathan where I'd came last. 
    
Note: When I went to bed I did the throat exercise and also used the perfume. Instead of using the market dream I visualised myself rising and then looking down on my body. As I was falling asleep I saw bright flash of light. I had a good couple of false awakenings. When I woke up I had eight letters waiting for me. That's what the first part meant. 

Interpretation: Marathan 50

Probably shows the time I really came last in the marathan. 

Beings I came close with this method I'll use it  instead of the market and I'll try to produce ethheric projections. I'll emit the body of light first. 
    Also upon awakening, before the I the ?breaths or affirmation, I'll rise into the air in my imagination, then do the base chakra in my astral body. That way if it's a false awakening I should go up in the air,  then be aware that I'm dreaming. Yep, that sounds perfect. One of the few times I've been fully lucid was when I woke up (false) and rose into the kitchen. 
    
12/2/91

Couldn't remember a dream this morning. I used the perfume and ?enlivened the neck. I fell asleep before I did the body of light though. 

Date: 13th February 1991 Snatchets 51
Mood Not good 2.8 Vividness 3.3

I was in the bath and had satellite link up on the Wogan show. 
    Then I was in a newsagents and bought some sweets and left a pound on the counter, which I then picked up.
    I was then in a record shop with Jason looking or an Iron Maiden record. 
    
Interpretation - The Wogan part shows I want to become public ally clean by giving up smoking. The newsagent shows me buying slimming sweets, hoping to lose pounds. The records means I hope to set a record. 

Note:Last night I did the perfume, meditation and body of light and woke up early a couple of times. I think it's mostly practice now. I'm doing yoga now. I'll learn to sit still for ana hour, then do pranyayama, then do usual projections for ana hour. 

Date: Thursday 14th February 1991
Mood very low 1.9 Vividness 5.2
Fruit plan 62

There was a note hanging out my bedroom widow. 
    I was in the lounge eand I found a diagram that had a type of ladder diagram, with pieces of fruit between each rung. Geoff said it was instructions for making a new country. He told me the pieces of fruit were designs for a new flat. I said no and toldhim it was a ccess formulary. I sat at the top rung there was a picture of a melon and I was really exited and ?pleased.
    
Interpretation Fruit Plan 52

I didn't do exercises and went to bed very drunk. Before that I was thinking of starting a business, but I couldn't find any bottles.s When I woke up I'd been sent a catalogue selling bottles and fruit oils, both of which I need. The country probably shows I want something new. The adder's rungs sow the stages to my business plan. The melon is it coming up divivdenets. This is excellent.

15/2/91

I tried to ethheric project last night and was lying on my back while I did so. I did see the top corner roof the room after a couple of flashes of light, but had to turn on my side because of the pain and discomfort. I fell asleep again and couldn't remember rmy dream in the morning. Perhaps when I saw the corner of the room I should have tried moving over to the picture I was trying to see. 
    AS I just wrote in my yoga diary I'm going to carry on lucid dreaming and when Oliver Fox's book comes I'll see what that says. I'll try ethheric projections eery day and write down the time. Working every day soon or later it must work. 
    
Date: 18th February 1991
Mood bad 1.1 Vividness 7.8
53 Gardener

I was in bed and Darren came round and knocked on the bedroom door. I told him not to do it again. 
    Then I was with um and walking to her house. She told me that if I wanted to move she'd buy me some wine or a house. I got to the front door and it was chained and I opened it with my knee. I went throught into the lounge. There was a man working in the garden. I looked at a letter from the sorcerer's apprentice. It said something about them sending me something. The man from the garden came in and said the weather was nice, but was about to turn. I laughed and said we'll pay for it tomorrow. He said he had a son like me that never washed his hair. 
        One day he was supposed to go to school and he said no. He walked him if he wanted to learn histoly and he said no and the father said who does he thinks he it? The boy just said, 'The king of _____ (forgot)'.
        Then I looked at some videos in the bcabinet and one told you about women's dreams and what you could learn from them. It had topics like money, status, sex etc. P put it back but it broke so I he'd it so no one could see I did it. 
        
Interpretation 54 Gardener

The first part says I didn't like ?children.
    The house shows I want to move, as does the fence. Don't know about the letter. The gardener show the rise aspect of me saying I paid for happiness since by sadness later. The history shows my ?? The hair shows I'm ruled my my feelings. The video shows what I gave up to follow the occult
    
_Same day_: I sent off letters to start off an occult supply business, bought stock etc. Also me and Jack decided we'll see if we want to go back to c ollage. Tomorrow's the job club, so I'll write up what happened. 

Wednesday 20th February 1991
Mood OKish 5.1 Vividness 5.0
55 Re-union

I was looking into a Chinese shop but it was shut. A sign said in the chemists, back in a minute. A girl came out and asked if I wanted to go in (a girl from the chemists show owned the shop of course). I said no but went in later. We talked for a while and she was playing with a child. I told her I remember her years ago but playing with a different child. She said we had two. She kept giggling a lot. 
    Me, Darren and Jason went o looking for ages to find a flat and we were looking for some friends who were on drugs. When we got there a man said there were no flats for us because ethe young people were on drugs. 
    
A long time ago I saw a girl that came to speak to me but I wanked away because was too body. Today I saw her at work and some time when I have etime I'll go and apologise. That's the first bit. 
    The second bit shows Jason saying I can move into his flat when he gets it. 
    
Note: I didn't do my lucid dreaming because I stayed up for the job club. We went by the way. First of all we couldn't find it and were 45 minutes late. Then they put on  a two minute video to welcome us. The atmosphere was really awful. They gave us a piece of paper and told us to write down what was good abuout us. Jason wrote down punctual. I told him we have eto leave so we ran out. 
    At BHS we realised that wer were 45 minutes late, stayed five minutes and left a piece of paper with 'punctual' on! Never again!
    
Date: Thursday 21st February 1991
Mood 5.2 Vividness 0.9
56 Chess

I was playing chess. 

Date: Friday 22nd February 1991
Mood 5.3 Vividness 5.4
57 Row

Louise and Geoff got into my bed and kept pushing me. I went downstairs and he'd left a note telling me what to do. He shsouted at me from the kitchen. I went in the garden and an old woman told me I was ill and gave me some medicine and food. It was in a GErman cuppa that  Geoff has in his room. She told me it was coffee. It was silver in colour (the medicine). 

Interpretation 57 Row

This shows a row I had with Geoff (We've now fell out). The old woman may be Ann and the medicine shows it will be healed. I may go away with Ann to get it sorted. 

Date: 3rd March 1991 (Monday)
Mood 5.1 Vividness 8.9
LUCID DREAM 58

I said to Jay would it be funny if Manny rug up the occult shop pretending he was Jason and the man knew telepathically. I wan on the phone and I laughed so much I had to bend down. 
    Then we went upstairs and ?ate eastereggs.
    I was downtown with Jason looking into a room that used to be somewhere where music was played. There were spectators in the windows but they were so quiet you could hardly hear them. I plugged my headphones in and listened on them. Jason showed me an old photograph of Yorkshire in the 50s/60s. The view inside the photo kept panning around like a television camera. I looked at it and said, 'Camera's can't do that... I'M DREAMING!' Although it didn't feel like it, it felt like I was awake. I was back in bed and it felt like I was awake, it I knew I was asleep. I willed myself to rise into the air. I went up to the ceiling, then fell back down. 
    I woke up and looked for a pad but couldn't find one. Geoff was outside knocking to come in, then I woke up again!
    
Interpretation Lucid Dream 58

Don't know for sure. Perhaps it just means progress. 

Date: Sundayu 10th march 1991
Mood dOKish 4.3 Vividness 3.9
Photopark 59

I got  lots of letters.
    Jason came round and we were going out for the day. We looked at some photos that we'd taken in Abingdon park. One had me walking near a policeman. We then went to the market and Jason saw a photo frame he liked. 
    
Interpretation Photopark 59

Perhaps just memories I've had with Jay. 

Date: MOnday 11th March 1991
Mood 5.0 Vividness 3.8
Haircut 60

I went to have my hair cut and halfway throught the hairdresser walked out and I had to wait ages for him to come back, and even then he didn't finish it. 

Interpretation Haircut 60

Don't know

Fsyrz; urrdfsy 12th March 1991
Mood 5.1 Vividness 4.3
Past lives

I was with a Chinese girl and we stood together and went back in time, and I became all the people I've been previously. 

Interpretation
Past life acceptance/experience/recall.

Date: Wednesday 13th March 1991
Mood 4.8 Vividness 6.8
Light Man 62

I was in the loungue playing tennis with Mum and Ann, but the ball was too small so I couldn't see it. I lost and recorded in on a special machine. 
    Then I was at Mum's house and Robby had a pup. Rob was rejecting it, but a little boy said he wanted to look after it. I told him to wipe Robb's poo over it so it would have it's father's scent. 
    They went off and David Bowie came in the house with flashing lights all over him, in the dream he was my dad. Brian came round and we hid the pups. 
    
Interpretation LIght man 62

Mum and Ann don't fight fairly and I don't like the dog. 

Date: Friday 15th March 1991
Mood OK 5.2 Vividness 2.1

I found two parcels under a chair. 

Date: Sunday 17th march 1991
Mood 3.9 Vividness 3.9
Firedog 63

I was in a sot lighting a fire with petrol to keep a dog warm. A woman came in and did it for me. I looked round the shop and saw James Herbert's latest book and saw it was rubbish, then I saw some sunglasses. 

Interpretation Firedog 63

Perhaps saying I've lost faith in the book I'm just feeling. 

Date: March 20th (Wednesday) 1991
Mood Hmmm 3.9 Vividness 1.8

I had to go to court for not paying the poll tax. I'd payed all but 19p of it!

Interpretation

I RECEIVED MY NEW BILL WHEN I WOKE UP. 

extra result.

IN THE LUCID DREAM 58 I DREAMPT THE CO-OP ARCADE WAS EMPTY. WHEN I SIGNED ON MONDAY, *IT WAS*, I HAD NO IDEA THE SHOP WAS EVEN THINKING OF FINISHING. 

Date: *64* 22nd March (Friday) 1991
Mood 4.9 Vividness 8.7 
Starting over

I got up and dressed and went downstairs with my blazer on because I was going back to school downstairs there were roads of parcels from a catalogue that Ann had sent for. Most of it was tools for the garden and the hoover stood next to one of the parcels. 
   Then I was with Ann in a supermarket. She had a massive bag of money. She tried to go past one of the ordinary tills but I showed her a special place for people that have a lot of money. WE got through and walked slowly until a security guard said it was safe for us to leave. Ann turned into Yasmine and we walked round the corner and were in Billing. Yasmine walked one way assuming In would follow her, but I walked  the other and she caught me up. We lay down just past a kind of bridge/fountain. I asked her if she remembered Colin, a boy who used to work there. She told me that's show she started out when she was young. When they were about 19 they all went swimming together. I felt really close to her (they've never met). 
   
Interpretation Starting Out 64

I think it mainly shows a new start that I'm trying to propeate. The parcels and school possibly shows I'm learning how to change my mind. The money shows me trying to begin business. Swimming shows me gaining confidence. 

Date: Saturday 23rd March 1991
Mood OKOish 4.8 Vividness 7.6
Back in the Market 65

I was in a large market. As I walked in, my old headmaster gave me a library ticked that I@d forgotten about. I saw a girl who in real life was an enemy, and she asked me if I'd seen her friend. I said don't but I'd help her look. 
    We walked round together and found her There was a boy hitting her so I picked up a cricket bat and started to hit him I hid ofr a while and while I was hiding I found a statue of the god Re and something else Egyptian. I couldn't afford the statue so I took the other.  I was really excited because I knew I could sell them. On the way out I saw a young Spanish girl who was moving carpets to sell them. 
    
Interpretation Back in the market

The first bit is prob me leaving school + what I learnt (othing!) The fat boy bullying someone is probably Ann, meaning Ild like to be shot of her. The rest shows my various business ideas and the Spanish girl with a carpet shows the forgotten experiences I'll probably have and different ways to make money/live. 

Date: Sunday 24th March 1991
Mood 4.8 Vividness 3.2
Water (glass of) 66

  I woke up (but not really, only in the dream) and had a glass of water. I thought to myself (still dreaming) if I wake myself up on purpose while asleep I could then lucid dream.
  Then I was with some woman in a jewelry shop 
  
Interpretation 66 water (glass of) 

Poss advice about how to lucid dream.

Date: Monday the 25th of March 1991 
Mood 4.3 vividness 6.9
Ice cream bet 67 

I went to Weston favell center with Jay to put a bet on, But it was closed for a while said we went for tea instead. They didn't have tea so I had chocolate ice cream,then I saw tea so I had that as well.

Interpretation ice cream bet 67 

This means I'm waiting for my advert to go in Prediction and until then I have to wait until I can gamble. Ice cream means that there's much on offer until then.

Date: Tuesday 26th of March 1991 
Mood 0.4 vividness 5.4
Take a break 68 

I went to Ely with Ann and Alf for a break. Across the river I saw an old man gesture for me to go and have a drink with them. On the same side of the river as me a woman sat down with her kids and put suntan lotion on. I (unreadable) on her she had moles all over her body. 

Interpretation Take a Break 68 

Shows Anne tries to make it so I can never leave. Moles is from a book on body reading I saw earlier. 

Date Thursday the 28th of March 1991 
Mood okish 3.9 vividness 7.9 
Working Boy 69 

I went to the Chinese takeaway with Jason. He wanted Chinese but I wanted Indian. I went to the restaurant and there was nobody to serve me so I sat with the menu for a while. It was in my garage. 
    That was a Chinese family in the house and the Chinese policeman came to the door with the girl who had been raped. The dog box and the girl's mother held him to keep him quiet. They sentence a suspect and put him in the chair and put lights on all around him. I went to take down the curtain in Ann's room  but Barbara kept looking in so I couldn't. 
    I had a new job in the garage and my bosses slept outside in the tent. Jay asked when I would be leaving and I told him not to speak so loudly so they wouldn't hear me. I was then sitting at the table writing something with my boss in a duplicate box. That telephone made that odd ringing noise for a while like on and off then it run properly. I woke up and my alarm was going. 
    
Interpretation Working Boy 69 

I ought to say firstly that the new business venture that I'm setting up so the restaurant shows I'm hoping it can give me what I hunger for. 
    The girl being right probably shows I hate and plus all that noise that the dog makes. 
    The jump shows all soon have a job to do it in the garage and I hope it can help me move out. 
    
Date: Friday 29th of March 1991 
Mood 3.0 vividness 5.7
Newsagent shop 70 

I was in the Patel's newsagent and I bought a magazine about Thailand. I looked in the book and saw there was an advertisement place where you could send in your advert. I picked some salt and vinegar crisps but changed my mind and got cheese and onion. 

Date: Saturday 30th of March 1991
Mood okay 5.1 vividness 6.2 
Cow jumping 71 

I was a porter in a train station and I caught and escaped convict / prisoner. 
    Then I walked up to some fields. That was a cow climbing over fences and falling each time, so I cut the top two wires to help it over them because it was pregnant. 
    
Date Easter Sunday 31st April 
Mood OK 4.8 vividness 4.1 
Herby 73 

I was in BHS and my friend grew a herb garden. 

Hey Monday 1st April (April Fool's Day) 1991 
Moved OKish 4.3 vividness 6.6
The journey 74 

I had a driving lesson book so I had a shave. I got on a motorbike and gingerly rode off. A policeman saw I was having trouble and showed me how to turn suddenly. It wasn't much use, but a nice gesture. I met my driving instructor and we walked for a while (when I started on the bike and plus Yasmine were with me, by now they weren't). He meant a Chinese girl and talk to her in chinese. She was being sarcastic to me so I laughed. Then we walked on a bit until a young Chinese boy saw me pushing the bike and also said sarcastically, "what strength!" (On the motorbike the engine had been very weak). Return on walking and ended up in london. I was disappointed because I wanted to go to Cheltenham. We went into someone's back garden and it was full of second hand broken TVs. it was a marketplace. I went through the house and gave a girl a present. I held hands with all the family and said goodbye. We were all sad that I was going. I walk towards the back door and a woman got a [unreadable] with a light in it. The light didn't work so she took it out and they turned into a bunch of flowers. Outside there was a rolls Royce waiting to take me and some others away and the woman presented one of the passengers with the flowers we got in and drove off. 

Interpretation The Journey 74

The broken type of motorbike shows my lack of motivation common but getting off and pushing shows I'll definitely give it a go. The Chinese people show the people who laugh at me. 
    The marketplace with TVs and goodbyes shows me leaving and being independent (I hope).
    
Date Wednesday 3rd April 1991 
Mood 4.7 vividness 4.3 
Scratch card 75 

I was playing one of those games where you have to scratch a panel off to see if you've won anything. I got a number four and one 400 pounds. I looked in a van and saw some kittens.

Interpretation 

This shows the talismans I'm selling soon through prediction. The card in the dream was exactly the same as the talismans that I'm going to sell. Perhaps the kittens mean something new. 

Date Thursday 4th of April 1991 
Mood 4.3 vividness 4.8 
Massacre 76 

I was reading a magazine about a computer that failed.
    I was in a house with Geoff and his friends and he wouldn't let me leave so I had to run away. They all killed loads of people with shotguns. I rang the police and there was spit in the receiver. 
    I went to open a bank account so that I could send money to a company. Rather than do that the cashier sent a letter to find out about the company.
    
Interpretation massacre 76 

The first bit is obviously not like you where I'm living at the moment. Especially positive since I had around before going to bed. 
    The race shows that I got a parcel this morning, I received the warning from the I Ching not to use them and this does the same it was only a sample, but I think I'll hear the warning.
    
Date Friday 5th April 1991 
Mood low 2.2 vividness 5.3 
Flying + ghost 77 

There was some sort of party going on at the house. I went upstairs with mum and Geoff and at the window there was a ghost. It made waterfall all down the window and it moves/stretched in and out.
    Then I was in the lounge and I came out of my body. I jumped high in the air and went out into the garden. I saw the lift tower, and also tried to jump over to the house, but I couldn't get that high. 
    
Interpretation find + ghost 77 

Basically sharing my wish to astrally project.

Date: Saturday 6th April 1991 
Painter 78 

Industry I very slightly knew that I was dreaming, but I wasn't totally sure it. 
    I was in market I was a painter. I done some pictures. One was the boat where Ann used to take me on holiday, but I'd scrawled all over it. The other was a Doctor Martin who with fire coming out the top. I think it was yesterday's. I was showing them to Jason 
    
[Note: there's a picture of a boot on fire hand drawn here.]

Then I was in the country. I saw a door and told Jason that I could paint something insulting to my family on there. We tried to pick up a rock but it was too heavy.

Interpretation painter  78 

The first pictures independence like the DM book I defensively picture because I want to leave the past. The second bit shows I want new experience of confidence, but the reality it's [unreadable] Jason was there because he feels it too. 

Date: Monday 8th of April in 1991 
Mood 3.2 vividness 4.8 
Scraps 79

To start with I think you remember a dream where I thought I could have been dreaming but wasn't sure. 
    The first part is something about a woman on TV but I can't remember it I was in the lounge and dug an alien out of the ground it went up to Ann.
    
Interpretation scraps 79 none, not enough. 

Date: Wednesday 10th April 1991 
Nude 3.6 vividness 2.2 
[Unreadable] 80

I was reading a magazine and there was some spiders advertised there. Somebody had a tarantula and I was frightened.

Interpretation Spider 80 

This is because the day before I got a magazine with my advert in and I'm a bit worried if anybody will respond because I put a lot of money into it. 

Date: Friday 13th March 1991 
Mood okay 4.8 vividness 1.8 
Blind 81 

I went to see a friend and his father was blind. 

Date: Monday 15th April 1991 
Nude 5.1 that vividness 7.2 
?Air Cone 82

I was at the bottom of a messy pig I never builders at the top that told me to get out. ( Jason was with me). We went to the door and when I came through I was in the air force. There was a form on the table that said me and Jason were in love. There was another question asking who I love and I wrote in that I loved everybody. It was dated 1979. 
    I was at an art course and was looking at a rhino wondering how I would paint it. I scratched it and it seemed happy. When I woke up I was scratching the wall. 

Interpretation Air force 83 

The first part shows that both me and Jason are both in a pit in line, but trying to get out. The air force shows new possibility being [unreadable]. Philip Jason Todd is because I just fell out with him. In 1979 I wasn't bitter and did love everybody. The art was is among a number of courses that I'm thinking of taking and the rhino is an independent feature that does what it was, which is what I want to be in life. 

Date: Wednesday 17th April 1991 
Mood 4.8 vividness 0.9 
Coke 84

I tipped Coke on the carpet. 

Interpretation Coke 84 

Probably just frustrating at being at home. 

 Date: Thursday 18th April 1991 
 Nude 3.8 vividness 2.3 
 Yahoo! 85
 
I was sending off letters and I found some money I'd forgotten about. 

Interpretation Wishful thinking! 

Date: Monday 23rd April 1991 
Moved okayish 4.7 vividness 1.1 
Computer 86 

I was at the table and wrapping a computer. It had just come from the catalog company and I was unsure if I spent too much money on it. 

Interpretation 86 Computer

I've got to start my new book soon and I'm thinking of buying one. 

Date: Tuesday 23rd April 1991 [sic]
Mood 4.3 vividness 5.2 ( trouble sleeping)
Posty 87

Still doing and it was the postman. He asked if my car went and I told him it was broken he fixed it and got it going for me. He told me he paint it.
    Then I was in the occult shop. Simon told me something about spain, but I forgot what now.
    
Interpretation posty 87 

I'm sure this is because I got two orders today. It means these orders will get my business going again. The change in color means I have a new idea. 

Date: Monday 29th April 1991 
Mood 4.3 vividness 5.8 
Babysitter 88 

I was looking after somebody's pet caterpillar in the tub and it escaped. I couldn't catch it. I looked out the window and all I could see with dead birds. 
    I went to sign on and I told her it was cavalier when I meant to say clerical. I love so much that the woman turned into a black cat and tried to run away, (although I think she was more a kitten). For some reason I've written on the dream pad that my book was cavalier, which is why it was published. 
    
Interpretation Babysitter 88 

The first bit is I think a new attitude and thoughts hatching. 
    I didn't actually sign on today and I had to tell them it was clerical! I think the second bit means I'm more confident now.
    
Date: Wednesday Thursday 1st May 1991 
Mood 4.2 vividness 5.3 
Fun run 89 

I was on a run with two American tourists. We crossed over a bridge over water and I asked if they were like this in america. One of the runners was Rambo. The one I was talking to and felt close to was Ophiel (the man who wrote my astral projection book). We went over a park and I said is it like this in America and Ophiel said yes. We go to the end of the race and I wasn't sure where it stopped, but I ran anyway and finished joint third with Ophiel. 

Interpretation Fun Run 80 

Tonight (last night really) I restarted lucid dreaming attempts with the new method. It says it'll work (I hope). At the end it probably means that I've been doing it for a while, but without result. Perhaps in me perhaps it means it's this one.

Date: Thursday 2nd April in 1991 
Mood 4.8 vividness 7.7 
Close 10 (ALMOST LUCID) 

Me, Geoff, Yas + Ann well at home and Jeff said as soon as she went out I started smoking in the house. I went into the garden and was really mad. Yasmine followed me and I shouted at her to leave me alone at. I sat down because she wouldn't let me pass I was even maddrr. A her got caught in my hair and I couldn't get it out. She tried to pull and still it wouldn't come. 
    I was getting in the bar and I look backwards in the mirror and I saw a pooed myself. 
    I saw someone going in window and meet me downstairs (scribbled so I can't read it properly).
    I was standing over my computer chanting, into the dream, into the dream. Also as I chanted it I fell asleep I [unreadable] did it. 
    
Interpretation Close 90 

The first big shows I don't like Ann + Geoff. 
    The windows I'm not sure of. 
    The chanting part was a close lucid dream. 
    The excrement part was getting rid of something that I no longer need. 
    
Date: Friday 3rd May 1991 
Mood 4.8 vividness 8.0
LUCID DREAM 91 

I was in the Grovsnrt and I saw a Tierney's mum shopping with her children. 
    I was in the shop and bought some sweets. I went back to choose some chocolate and the man that showed me a selection. I picked a chocolate shell first, but was shocked when I learned it was 2 pounds. He gave me change in foreign currency and I picked some more stuff. An assistant told me I should sit in the bedroom (which is where the sweets were). 
    
Went back to sleep. 

I went to w h s and bought some shampoo and paid for it with a  silver bangle that I still quite wanted, but gave it anyway. 
    I was then at the doctor with Jason. He went in first and had to have an operation at. They put a cap on him and I left. I almost got run over on the way home. Then I was at home sitting on the step and one of my teeth fell out. I was really upset but then I realized I was dreaming. Then I woke up. 

Interpretation LUCID DREAM 91 

The beat with Tierney's mum was nothing in particular. 
    Sweets in the sweet shop a lucid dreams, and the shell dash fish, the unconscious. It was more than I thought because it's very hard to lucid dream and the foreign currency means a new experience. The man is telling me to sweet area is a bad furthers the lucid dream connection [sic].
    Shampoo means the mind / lucid dreams at. The banker is something I used to use to try to dream lucidly, but gave up. 
    Me plus j at the doctors probably shows one started loosing dreaming (or attempting) to get that. He had an operation with a cap on and we were parted. In real life he gave up so it has some connection to that. Almost getting run over shows something hazardous, then I realized I was dreaming.
    Now I come to think of it, I went to the doctor in the dream, but didn't they go in. In real life I fell out with him because I didn't dare to go to court with him. Perhaps it means I lucid dream because I'm away from him? 
    
Date: Saturday 4th May 1991 
Mood okayish 3.8 vividness 2.9 
Row 92 

I was in the kitchen having around with Ann and I hinted I may be moving.
    I was watching TV and turned up the sound. 
    
No definition (too scrappy). 

Date: Sunday 5th May 1991 
Mood 4.3 vividness 4.1 
Lost 93

I did write down a dream this morning, but I've lost it. I do know, remember it was all to do with what I'm visualizing. If I do find it I'll drop it in. 

Date: Monday May 6th 1991 
Mood 4.0 vividness 3.1 
Lost 94

Believe it or not I've lost another bit of paper. I do remember me and Jason were walking down some stairs to a court, showing that we fell out. 

Date: Tuesday May 7th 1991 
Mood very bad 1.0 a vividness 2.2 
Paint 95 

That was a tapping on the window and I realized it was because the planets exert a strange pull.
    I was in Ireland and the man said my accent made me abnormal. 
    
Interpretation 

The noise made by the paint it outside cause this dream. 

Date: Thursday 9th May 1991 
Mood hmm 4.0 vividness 1.8 
Comrade 96 

I had around with Ann and then was walking in town with a Russian woman.

NID

Date: Friday 10th May 
C o m p 97 

I won a computer. 

Date: Saturday 26th May 1991 
Mood okay 5.0 vividness 6.4 
Competition 98 

I was at school and there was a large lineup of people and everyone had to pick one. I picked a russian. Everybody had been given a card as a competition and I won because mine had the one of hearts on. 

Interpretation competition 98 

Friend? 

Date: Sunday 26th May 1991 
Mood 4.7 vividness 9.9 
EXCELLENT LUCID DREAM 99 

The first part was known that lucid where I wrote something on a neighbor's ear and they came to arrest me. 
    The next bit was the most lucid dream I've ever had. I was in the classroom and as I walked in I said to myself "I'm dreaming and I know I'm dreaming and I WILL continue to know I'm dreaming." I looked around I noted the classroom. I went to the window and looked out over open, grassy field and realize this was a real as when I'm awake. Then in either faded or I woke up, not sure which. 

LUCID DREAM 99 

This was fairly amazing. I've been playing a lucid dreaming subliminal, but only twice, then I gave up. I'm going to copy it onto a c120 and play it daily to increase length. I go to stay at Jason's soon as then I will do exercises to develop the wheel and come back prepared for more on the 14th when after more tape playing will I should stand a better chance in all exercises generally. 

Date: Sunday 2nd of June 1991 
Mood okayish 4.8 vividness 4.6
Bank 100 

I was in the bank with Jason and he was doing some transaction or whatever. I noticed his bank book was in the form of a plastic card. I pushed past a black man in a wheelchair. He remarked about something, but I was embarrassed so I didn't pay any attention. The one I thought to be disabled turn down to not be and the one I thought to be pushing him was. They decided to go off on some kind of marathon to prove they could do it on the disabled man walked without his wheelchair. 

Interpretation Bank 100 

This is obviously about my digitalization for 10,000 pounds. Perhaps it means the money will be a type of freedom. 

 Date: Friday 7th June 1991 
 Sayings 101
 
I was in the grovsnet and I said to Jason how sweet is a cow oh what a tangled web we weave.

Date: Saturday the 8th of June 1991 
LUCID DREAM 102 

I was asleep at Jason's house (in the dream) and I knew I was dreaming I rose into the air. 

Date: Monday 9th June 1991 
LUCID DREAM 103 

i was asleep in bed a new i was dreaming. everything was black. i flew up into the air and i strained to see but i couldn't. there was something chasing me in the background, but i couldn't see what it was. i got back into my body and went to sleep. i thought to myself at the time that i should try and project at night and i'm falling asleep because he images come easier. 

Date: Tuesday 19th June 1991

I was at Wickedsteed park and it was about keeping me awake. I went to sleep and a man shouted for me to get up but Jason Pike instead and that's it. 

Date: Monday 24th of June 1991 
Note: I fell asleep for 1 hour and I awoke naturally. 

Seaside 104 

I was in the seaside bed and breakfast place on holiday with Jason. The hotel was a bit full and I was expected to share the hotel with a sailor. I didn't want to so I slept on the floor. We went out the next day and when we came home/to the hotel there were arcade machines in our room. That landlady offered Jason egg on toast but my teeth crumbled away so I didn't have it. Everybody went out and I felt in my mouth and [unreadable] were none missing. I looked out to the sea and Jason asked if I wanted to go swimming and I almost said no but I the  thought why not and agreed.

Interpretation seaside 104 

Giving away and all the new things it shows all the new things I'm doing at the moment. 
    The arcade is because I went on arcades at the seaside. The two is probably because I have to go to the dentist for tomorrow and it's telling me not to worry. 

Date: Thursday 27th June 1991 
Promotion 105 

I was back at school and got given a pen as part of sales promotion. 

Date: Monday 1st July 1991 
Fruit 106 

I was on the train in a labyrinth. I was lost in going up and down stairs.
    Somebody delivered a pizza but I haven't ordered it and it wasn't very nice. 
    Me and Jason are out and we were in a shop there was some kind of food but I can't remember what. I opened it up but it wasn't ripe yet. I thought to myself I'll have it when it is and it will be lovely. I went outside and there was a tree + bin on fire. I walked down the street looking for some way to put them out. A woman told me her husband was missing and I said I didn't understand her. She attackrd me with a knife but I disarmed her. 
    
Interpretation fruit 106 

The Labyrinth shows lost at moment and up plus down. 
    The pizza refers to something I saw on TV before going to bed. 
    The second/third bit shows at the shop there is something germinating which I can enjoy later but I have to wait. It's probably freedom and new experience. Outside things are on fire, like there had been some trouble there and it was in disarray. This is obviously home now. I want to put the fire out of common but a woman who lost her husband (Ann) said I didn't understand her (which she does and I don't) and see attacked me with a knife, which obviously means she attacks me verbally (I hope it's not a prophecy). 
    
Date: 5th of July 1991 
Mood 3.3 vividness 7.0 
[Unreadable] 107

I was in the occult shop and asked John if he had a book I'd ordered. He said yes and went upstairs. I needed to go toilet so I spat on the floor and urinated on it. John came down the stairs and saw me so I apologized and said I'd clean it up. I went in the back and it was a cellar. I got a mop snd I went into his jewelry cabinet. I went into a cubicle and inside that there was a garden with all houses in it. In the middle there was a toilet. I tried to fit a freshener in it but it wouldn't go. I saw someone I knew and called, but they never heard me. Then I woke up. 

Interpretation surreal 107 

Before I went to bed I spilled a drink on Ann's new carpet and this dream shows my coping with her obsessive cleanliness. The toilet shows I need to get rid of it. The freshness shows nothing pleases her. The friend probably shows independence. 

Date: Tuesday 9th July 1991 
Akasha 108

I was walking around school but I knew that I'd left and all the students were new. I thought to myself I must stop being in the past. I looked at the TV and there was a nature program on. All the animals were red and were called elemental birth. I saw a badger lay a black egg and a bird pooed around it. I saw an animal eating and the narrator said he was feeding its young.

Interpretation Akasha 108

The school bitch shows me trying to make a new start the elements show me starting work with them. The eating shows nursing something yet to come to fruit. 

[Horizontal line as a section break drawn here] 

I am finishing this particular book early because I have a new one "walk on" in which I am the synethesing all my five previous journals.

    Signed.
    
       [My signature here].
       25/7/91
       2:03am. 



















o leave. Ann turned into Yasmine and we walked round the corner and were in Billing. Yasmine walked one way assuming In would follow her, but I walked  the other and she caught me up. We lay down just past a kind of bridge/fountain. I asked her if she remembered Colin, a boy who used to work there. She told me that's show she started out when she was young. When they were about 19 they all went swimming together. I felt really close to her (they've never met). 
   
Interpretation Starting Out 64

I think it mainly shows a new start that I'm trying to propeate. The parcels and school possibly shows I'm learning how to change my mind. The money shows me trying to begin business. Swimming shows me gaining confidence. 

Date: Saturday 23rd March 1991
Mood OKOish 4.8 Vividness 7.6
Back in the Market 65

I was in a large market. As I walked in, my old headmaster gave me a library ticked that I@d forgotten about. I saw a girl who in real life was an enemy, and she asked me if I'd seen her friend. I said don't but I'd help her look. 
    We walked round together and found her There was a boy hitting her so I picked up a cricket bat and started to hit him I hid ofr a while and while I was hiding I found a statue of the god Re and something else Egyptian. I couldn't afford the statue so I took the other.  I was really excited because I knew I could sell them. On the way out I saw a young Spanish girl who was moving carpets to sell them. 
    
Interpretation Back in the market

The first bit is prob me leaving school + what I learnt (othing!) The fat boy bullying someone is probably Ann, meaning Ild like to be shot of her. The rest shows my various business ideas and the Spanish girl with a carpet shows the forgotten experiences I'll probably have and different ways to make money/live. 

Date: Sunday 24th March 1991
Mood 4.8 Vividness 3.2
Water (glass of) 66

  I woke up (but not really, only in the dream) and had a glass of water. I thought to myself (still dreaming) if I wake myself up on purpose while asleep I could then lucid dream.
  Then I was with some woman in a jewelry shop 
  
Interpretation 66 water (glass of) 

Poss advice about how to lucid dream.

Date: Monday the 25th of March 1991 
Mood 4.3 vividness 6.9
Ice cream bet 67 

I went to Weston favell center with Jay to put a bet on, But it was closed for a while said we went for tea instead. They didn't have tea so I had chocolate ice cream,then I saw tea so I had that as well.

Interpretation ice cream bet 67 

This means I'm waiting for my advert to go in Prediction and until then I have to wait until I can gamble. Ice cream means that there's much on offer until then.

Date: Tuesday 26th of March 1991 
Mood 0.4 vividness 5.4
Take a break 68 

I went to Ely with Ann and Alf for a break. Across the river I saw an old man gesture for me to go and have a drink with them. On the same side of the river as me a woman sat down with her kids and put suntan lotion on. I (unreadable) on her she had moles all over her body. 

Interpretation Take a Break 68 

Shows Anne tries to make it so I can never leave. Moles is from a book on body reading I saw earlier. 

Date Thursday the 28th of March 1991 
Mood okish 3.9 vividness 7.9 
Working Boy 69 

I went to the Chinese takeaway with Jason. He wanted Chinese but I wanted Indian. I went to the restaurant and there was nobody to serve me so I sat with the menu for a while. It was in my garage. 
    That was a Chinese family in the house and the Chinese policeman came to the door with the girl who had been raped. The dog box and the girl's mother held him to keep him quiet. They sentence a suspect and put him in the chair and put lights on all around him. I went to take down the curtain in Ann's room  but Barbara kept looking in so I couldn't. 
    I had a new job in the garage and my bosses slept outside in the tent. Jay asked when I would be leaving and I told him not to speak so loudly so they wouldn't hear me. I was then sitting at the table writing something with my boss in a duplicate box. That telephone made that odd ringing noise for a while like on and off then it run properly. I woke up and my alarm was going. 
    
Interpretation Working Boy 69 

I ought to say firstly that the new business venture that I'm setting up so the restaurant shows I'm hoping it can give me what I hunger for. 
    The girl being right probably shows I hate and plus all that noise that the dog makes. 
    The jump shows all soon have a job to do it in the garage and I hope it can help me move out. 
    
Date: Friday 29th of March 1991 
Mood 3.0 vividness 5.7
Newsagent shop 70 

I was in the Patel's newsagent and I bought a magazine about Thailand. I looked in the book and saw there was an advertisement place where you could send in your advert. I picked some salt and vinegar crisps but changed my mind and got cheese and onion. 

Date: Saturday 30th of March 1991
Mood okay 5.1 vividness 6.2 
Cow jumping 71 

I was a porter in a train station and I caught and escaped convict / prisoner. 
    Then I walked up to some fields. That was a cow climbing over fences and falling each time, so I cut the top two wires to help it over them because it was pregnant. 
    
Date Easter Sunday 31st April 
Mood OK 4.8 vividness 4.1 
Herby 73 

I was in BHS and my friend grew a herb garden. 

Hey Monday 1st April (April Fool's Day) 1991 
Moved OKish 4.3 vividness 6.6
The journey 74 

I had a driving lesson book so I had a shave. I got on a motorbike and gingerly rode off. A policeman saw I was having trouble and showed me how to turn suddenly. It wasn't much use, but a nice gesture. I met my driving instructor and we walked for a while (when I started on the bike and plus Yasmine were with me, by now they weren't). He meant a Chinese girl and talk to her in chinese. She was being sarcastic to me so I laughed. Then we walked on a bit until a young Chinese boy saw me pushing the bike and also said sarcastically, "what strength!" (On the motorbike the engine had been very weak). Return on walking and ended up in london. I was disappointed because I wanted to go to Cheltenham. We went into someone's back garden and it was full of second hand broken TVs. it was a marketplace. I went through the house and gave a girl a present. I held hands with all the family and said goodbye. We were all sad that I was going. I walk towards the back door and a woman got a [unreadable] with a light in it. The light didn't work so she took it out and they turned into a bunch of flowers. Outside there was a rolls Royce waiting to take me and some others away and the woman presented one of the passengers with the flowers we got in and drove off. 

Interpretation The Journey 74

The broken type of motorbike shows my lack of motivation common but getting off and pushing shows I'll definitely give it a go. The Chinese people show the people who laugh at me. 
    The marketplace with TVs and goodbyes shows me leaving and being independent (I hope).
    
Date Wednesday 3rd April 1991 
Mood 4.7 vividness 4.3 
Scratch card 75 

I was playing one of those games where you have to scratch a panel off to see if you've won anything. I got a number four and one 400 pounds. I looked in a van and saw some kittens.

Interpretation 

This shows the talismans I'm selling soon through prediction. The card in the dream was exactly the same as the talismans that I'm going to sell. Perhaps the kittens mean something new. 

Date Thursday 4th of April 1991 
Mood 4.3 vividness 4.8 
Massacre 76 

I was reading a magazine about a computer that failed.
    I was in a house with Geoff and his friends and he wouldn't let me leave so I had to run away. They all killed loads of people with shotguns. I rang the police and there was spit in the receiver. 
    I went to open a bank account so that I could send money to a company. Rather than do that the cashier sent a letter to find out about the company.
    
Interpretation massacre 76 

The first bit is obviously not like you where I'm living at the moment. Especially positive since I had around before going to bed. 
    The race shows that I got a parcel this morning, I received the warning from the I Ching not to use them and this does the same it was only a sample, but I think I'll hear the warning.
    
Date Friday 5th April 1991 
Mood low 2.2 vividness 5.3 
Flying + ghost 77 

There was some sort of party going on at the house. I went upstairs with mum and Geoff and at the window there was a ghost. It made waterfall all down the window and it moves/stretched in and out.
    Then I was in the lounge and I came out of my body. I jumped high in the air and went out into the garden. I saw the lift tower, and also tried to jump over to the house, but I couldn't get that high. 
    
Interpretation find + ghost 77 

Basically sharing my wish to astrally project.

Date: Saturday 6th April 1991 
Painter 78 

Industry I very slightly knew that I was dreaming, but I wasn't totally sure it. 
    I was in market I was a painter. I done some pictures. One was the boat where Ann used to take me on holiday, but I'd scrawled all over it. The other was a Doctor Martin who with fire coming out the top. I think it was yesterday's. I was showing them to Jason 
    
[Note: there's a picture of a boot on fire hand drawn here.]

Then I was in the country. I saw a door and told Jason that I could paint something insulting to my family on there. We tried to pick up a rock but it was too heavy.

Interpretation painter  78 

The first pictures independence like the DM book I defensively picture because I want to leave the past. The second bit shows I want new experience of confidence, but the reality it's [unreadable] Jason was there because he feels it too. 

Date: Monday 8th of April in 1991 
Mood 3.2 vividness 4.8 
Scraps 79

To start with I think you remember a dream where I thought I could have been dreaming but wasn't sure. 
    The first part is something about a woman on TV but I can't remember it I was in the lounge and dug an alien out of the ground it went up to Ann.
    
Interpretation scraps 79 none, not enough. 

Date: Wednesday 10th April 1991 
Nude 3.6 vividness 2.2 
[Unreadable] 80

I was reading a magazine and there was some spiders advertised there. Somebody had a tarantula and I was frightened.

Interpretation Spider 80 

This is because the day before I got a magazine with my advert in and I'm a bit worried if anybody will respond because I put a lot of money into it. 

Date: Friday 13th March 1991 
Mood okay 4.8 vividness 1.8 
Blind 81 

I went to see a friend and his father was blind. 

Date: Monday 15th April 1991 
Nude 5.1 that vividness 7.2 
?Air Cone 82

I was at the bottom of a messy pig I never builders at the top that told me to get out. ( Jason was with me). We went to the door and when I came through I was in the air force. There was a form on the table that said me and Jason were in love. There was another question asking who I love and I wrote in that I loved everybody. It was dated 1979. 
    I was at an art course and was looking at a rhino wondering how I would paint it. I scratched it and it seemed happy. When I woke up I was scratching the wall. 

Interpretation Air force 83 

The first part shows that both me and Jason are both in a pit in line, but trying to get out. The air force shows new possibility being [unreadable]. Philip Jason Todd is because I just fell out with him. In 1979 I wasn't bitter and did love everybody. The art was is among a number of courses that I'm thinking of taking and the rhino is an independent feature that does what it was, which is what I want to be in life. 

Date: Wednesday 17th April 1991 
Mood 4.8 vividness 0.9 
Coke 84

I tipped Coke on the carpet. 

Interpretation Coke 84 

Probably just frustrating at being at home. 

 Date: Thursday 18th April 1991 
 Nude 3.8 vividness 2.3 
 Yahoo! 85
 
I was sending off letters and I found some money I'd forgotten about. 

Interpretation Wishful thinking! 

Date: Monday 23rd April 1991 
Moved okayish 4.7 vividness 1.1 
Computer 86 

I was at the table and wrapping a computer. It had just come from the catalog company and I was unsure if I spent too much money on it. 

Interpretation 86 Computer

I've got to start my new book soon and I'm thinking of buying one. 

Date: Tuesday 23rd April 1991 [sic]
Mood 4.3 vividness 5.2 ( trouble sleeping)
Posty 87

Still doing and it was the postman. He asked if my car went and I told him it was broken he fixed it and got it going for me. He told me he paint it.
    Then I was in the occult shop. Simon told me something about spain, but I forgot what now.
    
Interpretation posty 87 

I'm sure this is because I got two orders today. It means these orders will get my business going again. The change in color means I have a new idea. 

Date: Monday 29th April 1991 
Mood 4.3 vividness 5.8 
Babysitter 88 

I was looking after somebody's pet caterpillar in the tub and it escaped. I couldn't catch it. I looked out the window and all I could see with dead birds. 
    I went to sign on and I told her it was cavalier when I meant to say clerical. I love so much that the woman turned into a black cat and tried to run away, (although I think she was more a kitten). For some reason I've written on the dream pad that my book was cavalier, which is why it was published. 
    
Interpretation Babysitter 88 

The first bit is I think a new attitude and thoughts hatching. 
    I didn't actually sign on today and I had to tell them it was clerical! I think the second bit means I'm more confident now.
    
Date: Wednesday Thursday 1st May 1991 
Mood 4.2 vividness 5.3 
Fun run 89 

I was on a run with two American tourists. We crossed over a bridge over water and I asked if they were like this in america. One of the runners was Rambo. The one I was talking to and felt close to was Ophiel (the man who wrote my astral projection book). We went over a park and I said is it like this in America and Ophiel said yes. We go to the end of the race and I wasn't sure where it stopped, but I ran anyway and finished joint third with Ophiel. 

Interpretation Fun Run 80 

Tonight (last night really) I restarted lucid dreaming attempts with the new method. It says it'll work (I hope). At the end it probably means that I've been doing it for a while, but without result. Perhaps in me perhaps it means it's this one.

Date: Thursday 2nd April in 1991 
Mood 4.8 vividness 7.7 
Close 10 (ALMOST LUCID) 

Me, Geoff, Yas + Ann well at home and Jeff said as soon as she went out I started smoking in the house. I went into the garden and was really mad. Yasmine followed me and I shouted at her to leave me alone at. I sat down because she wouldn't let me pass I was even maddrr. A her got caught in my hair and I couldn't get it out. She tried to pull and still it wouldn't come. 
    I was getting in the bar and I look backwards in the mirror and I saw a pooed myself. 
    I saw someone going in window and meet me downstairs (scribbled so I can't read it properly).
    I was standing over my computer chanting, into the dream, into the dream. Also as I chanted it I fell asleep I [unreadable] did it. 
    
Interpretation Close 90 

The first big shows I don't like Ann + Geoff. 
    The windows I'm not sure of. 
    The chanting part was a close lucid dream. 
    The excrement part was getting rid of something that I no longer need. 
    
Date: Friday 3rd May 1991 
Mood 4.8 vividness 8.0
LUCID DREAM 91 

I was in the Grovsnrt and I saw a Tierney's mum shopping with her children. 
    I was in the shop and bought some sweets. I went back to choose some chocolate and the man that showed me a selection. I picked a chocolate shell first, but was shocked when I learned it was 2 pounds. He gave me change in foreign currency and I picked some more stuff. An assistant told me I should sit in the bedroom (which is where the sweets were). 
    
Went back to sleep. 

I went to w h s and bought some shampoo and paid for it with a  silver bangle that I still quite wanted, but gave it anyway. 
    I was then at the doctor with Jason. He went in first and had to have an operation at. They put a cap on him and I left. I almost got run over on the way home. Then I was at home sitting on the step and one of my teeth fell out. I was really upset but then I realized I was dreaming. Then I woke up. 

Interpretation LUCID DREAM 91 

The beat with Tierney's mum was nothing in particular. 
    Sweets in the sweet shop a lucid dreams, and the shell dash fish, the unconscious. It was more than I thought because it's very hard to lucid dream and the foreign currency means a new experience. The man is telling me to sweet area is a bad furthers the lucid dream connection [sic].
    Shampoo means the mind / lucid dreams at. The banker is something I used to use to try to dream lucidly, but gave up. 
    Me plus j at the doctors probably shows one started loosing dreaming (or attempting) to get that. He had an operation with a cap on and we were parted. In real life he gave up so it has some connection to that. Almost getting run over shows something hazardous, then I realized I was dreaming.
    Now I come to think of it, I went to the doctor in the dream, but didn't they go in. In real life I fell out with him because I didn't dare to go to court with him. Perhaps it means I lucid dream because I'm away from him? 
    
Date: Saturday 4th May 1991 
Mood okayish 3.8 vividness 2.9 
Row 92 

I was in the kitchen having around with Ann and I hinted I may be moving.
    I was watching TV and turned up the sound. 
    
No definition (too scrappy). 

Date: Sunday 5th May 1991 
Mood 4.3 vividness 4.1 
Lost 93

I did write down a dream this morning, but I've lost it. I do know, remember it was all to do with what I'm visualizing. If I do find it I'll drop it in. 

Date: Monday May 6th 1991 
Mood 4.0 vividness 3.1 
Lost 94

Believe it or not I've lost another bit of paper. I do remember me and Jason were walking down some stairs to a court, showing that we fell out. 

Date: Tuesday May 7th 1991 
Mood very bad 1.0 a vividness 2.2 
Paint 95 

That was a tapping on the window and I realized it was because the planets exert a strange pull.
    I was in Ireland and the man said my accent made me abnormal. 
    
Interpretation 

The noise made by the paint it outside cause this dream. 

Date: Thursday 9th May 1991 
Mood hmm 4.0 vividness 1.8 
Comrade 96 

I had around with Ann and then was walking in town with a Russian woman.

NID

Date: Friday 10th May 
C o m p 97 

I won a computer. 

Date: Saturday 26th May 1991 
Mood okay 5.0 vividness 6.4 
Competition 98 

I was at school and there was a large lineup of people and everyone had to pick one. I picked a russian. Everybody had been given a card as a competition and I won because mine had the one of hearts on. 

Interpretation competition 98 

Friend? 

Date: Sunday 26th May 1991 
Mood 4.7 vividness 9.9 
EXCELLENT LUCID DREAM 99 

The first part was known that lucid where I wrote something on a neighbor's ear and they came to arrest me. 
    The next bit was the most lucid dream I've ever had. I was in the classroom and as I walked in I said to myself "I'm dreaming and I know I'm dreaming and I WILL continue to know I'm dreaming." I looked around I noted the classroom. I went to the window and looked out over open, grassy field and realize this was a real as when I'm awake. Then in either faded or I woke up, not sure which. 

LUCID DREAM 99 

This was fairly amazing. I've been playing a lucid dreaming subliminal, but only twice, then I gave up. I'm going to copy it onto a c120 and play it daily to increase length. I go to stay at Jason's soon as then I will do exercises to develop the wheel and come back prepared for more on the 14th when after more tape playing will I should stand a better chance in all exercises generally. 

Date: Sunday 2nd of June 1991 
Mood okayish 4.8 vividness 4.6
Bank 100 

I was in the bank with Jason and he was doing some transaction or whatever. I noticed his bank book was in the form of a plastic card. I pushed past a black man in a wheelchair. He remarked about something, but I was embarrassed so I didn't pay any attention. The one I thought to be disabled turn down to not be and the one I thought to be pushing him was. They decided to go off on some kind of marathon to prove they could do it on the disabled man walked without his wheelchair. 

Interpretation Bank 100 

This is obviously about my digitalization for 10,000 pounds. Perhaps it means the money will be a type of freedom. 

 Date: Friday 7th June 1991 
 Sayings 101
 
I was in the grovsnet and I said to Jason how sweet is a cow oh what a tangled web we weave.

Date: Saturday the 8th of June 1991 
LUCID DREAM 102 

I was asleep at Jason's house (in the dream) and I knew I was dreaming I rose into the air. 

Date: Monday 9th June 1991 
LUCID DREAM 103 

i was asleep in bed a new i was dreaming. everything was black. i flew up into the air and i strained to see but i couldn't. there was something chasing me in the background, but i couldn't see what it was. i got back into my body and went to sleep. i thought to myself at the time that i should try and project at night and i'm falling asleep because he images come easier. 

Date: Tuesday 19th June 1991

I was at Wickedsteed park and it was about keeping me awake. I went to sleep and a man shouted for me to get up but Jason Pike instead and that's it. 

Date: Monday 24th of June 1991 
Note: I fell asleep for 1 hour and I awoke naturally. 

Seaside 104 

I was in the seaside bed and breakfast place on holiday with Jason. The hotel was a bit full and I was expected to share the hotel with a sailor. I didn't want to so I slept on the floor. We went out the next day and when we came home/to the hotel there were arcade machines in our room. That landlady offered Jason egg on toast but my teeth crumbled away so I didn't have it. Everybody went out and I felt in my mouth and [unreadable] were none missing. I looked out to the sea and Jason asked if I wanted to go swimming and I almost said no but I the  thought why not and agreed.

Interpretation seaside 104 

Giving away and all the new things it shows all the new things I'm doing at the moment. 
    The arcade is because I went on arcades at the seaside. The two is probably because I have to go to the dentist for tomorrow and it's telling me not to worry. 

Date: Thursday 27th June 1991 
Promotion 105 

I was back at school and got given a pen as part of sales promotion. 

Date: Monday 1st July 1991 
Fruit 106 

I was on the train in a labyrinth. I was lost in going up and down stairs.
    Somebody delivered a pizza but I haven't ordered it and it wasn't very nice. 
    Me and Jason are out and we were in a shop there was some kind of food but I can't remember what. I opened it up but it wasn't ripe yet. I thought to myself I'll have it when it is and it will be lovely. I went outside and there was a tree + bin on fire. I walked down the street looking for some way to put them out. A woman told me her husband was missing and I said I didn't understand her. She attackrd me with a knife but I disarmed her. 
    
Interpretation fruit 106 

The Labyrinth shows lost at moment and up plus down. 
    The pizza refers to something I saw on TV before going to bed. 
    The second/third bit shows at the shop there is something germinating which I can enjoy later but I have to wait. It's probably freedom and new experience. Outside things are on fire, like there had been some trouble there and it was in disarray. This is obviously home now. I want to put the fire out of common but a woman who lost her husband (Ann) said I didn't understand her (which she does and I don't) and see attacked me with a knife, which obviously means she attacks me verbally (I hope it's not a prophecy). 
    
Date: 5th of July 1991 
Mood 3.3 vividness 7.0 
[Unreadable] 107

I was in the occult shop and asked John if he had a book I'd ordered. He said yes and went upstairs. I needed to go toilet so I spat on the floor and urinated on it. John came down the stairs and saw me so I apologized and said I'd clean it up. I went in the back and it was a cellar. I got a mop snd I went into his jewelry cabinet. I went into a cubicle and inside that there was a garden with all houses in it. In the middle there was a toilet. I tried to fit a freshener in it but it wouldn't go. I saw someone I knew and called, but they never heard me. Then I woke up. 

Interpretation surreal 107 

Before I went to bed I spilled a drink on Ann's new carpet and this dream shows my coping with her obsessive cleanliness. The toilet shows I need to get rid of it. The freshness shows nothing pleases her. The friend probably shows independence. 

Date: Tuesday 9th July 1991 
Akasha 108

I was walking around school but I knew that I'd left and all the students were new. I thought to myself I must stop being in the past. I looked at the TV and there was a nature program on. All the animals were red and were called elemental birth. I saw a badger lay a black egg and a bird pooed around it. I saw an animal eating and the narrator said he was feeding its young.

Interpretation Akasha 108

The school bitch shows me trying to make a new start the elements show me starting work with them. The eating shows nursing something yet to come to fruit. 

[Horizontal line as a section break drawn here] 

I am finishing this particular book early because I have a new one "walk on" in which I am the synethesing all my five previous journals.

    Signed.
    
       [My signature here].
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