Date: Sunday 13th September 1990

Mood 5.1 Vividness 7.6

1 - Record Breaker

I looked out the window towards Barbara's house and I saw someone drinking out of a specimen bottle.

Then I was in the supermarket and there was a revolution going on there. I sent a woman soldier to take the leader hostage. I was at school, and I saw a girl I haven't seen for ages, and I realised I loved her. Then I went out of class and down some stairs to a subway. There were some big bullies and I sat down because I didn't want to pass, so I sat down and Jason Spatched said I couldn't run away all my life.

    Then I was in a very large, old kind of pond, about 4/500 meters circumference. I walked on a piece of mud and there was a waterfall to my right (only small). I walked in the water knee deep and waded to the other side, even though it was a long way through a ?twig came out the water at me, then ?retreated. I got to the other side and stopped at a sign that ??? I thought was the finish, but a man told me it wasn't, and to go round a bit. I did and then I saw the real finish sign. I thought now I'll be in the Guinness Book of World records, then I thought, 'No, I can't because it's esoteric, inside, and I can't prove it.' 

    

Interpretation.

Not sure about the urine part or the revolution. 

    The girl I was in love with and not passing the bully's show my two main mistakes in life to date. 

    The pool part is something inside, estoric that I can't prove, so it's almost definitely astral Projection. The pool is either the unconscious of the astral place, probably the former me crossing it hopefully means success, not sure about the false end. 

    

All this could easily be right becausey a long time ago, 3-4 years, I dreamt of a Bastet cat goddess statue in connection with pastoral projection, and now, without realising, I've bought one. Also I had a dream telling me knowledge of the four elements would open some kind of door and I've just done Earth, starting last night. I dreamt of a summary of my past this time because it probably means a new start. 

Date: Sunday 23 September  1990

Moon 2.3 Vividness 1.9

I was walking past a bookshelf and I looked at a book called how to get things right. I carried on walking and went into a toilet. I saw a woman crying hysterically and people trying in vain to help her. I took over and took her home with me. She lived in our garage. Ann came in to see what was happening, and I told her nothing, and she left. 

Interpretation

Not sure about this at all. 

Note: Above was a lucid dream attempt. 

When I go to bed I give myself the command to wake up with the idea of falling back into the dream. I'll have to see how that goes. Last night was the first attempt. 

Date: Monday 24th September 1990

Mood 2.2 Vividness 2.1

Credit Card

I queued up in Sainburys and bought a credit card. Then I was home and Phil and Yasmine came in. Phil asked me where my new job was. I showed him a Sainsburys bag and he understood. Then I was at a cash dispenser using my card, but the machine wasn't working. I realised I could punch in any amount I wanted. Then I realised I was spelling the word wrong (which I've now forgotten). 

Interpretation

This is almost certainly about my lucid dream attempts. The card shows that which I wish to obtain. The ?bed also shows what I want in the bag. The wrongly spelt word refers thus:- Before I go to bed each night I write down a command ?letting me wake up after my first dream, with the idea of continuing it with full consciousness. 

    Because in the dream my word was wrongly spelt, it's probably means I was phrasing it wrong. Once in the dream I realised the R was missing. I knew I could have as much as I wanted. Also I think the command doesn't work now because I'm having trouble with my sleeping pattern, therefore it could work from Thursday morning. 

    

Date: Tuesday 25th September 1990

ASTRAL PROJECTION ATTEMPT

I've just been upstairs to do an astral projection attempt and I came VERY close. 

    I started about 3.30pm. Ann had gone to the hair dressers. I had been working on a book I am writing and researching about the elements. I lay down and spent about, just over a minute externalising the body of light. When I put myself into it, I first made a single affirmation, then moved in. I kept awareness of the body of light, then turned both eyes outwards simultaneously. I kept looking down the BOL to its feet and hands and moving them, then in front of me to the wall, then at my face. After a couple of minutes I felt my body lifting up and got disorientated. I felt VERY strong movement and I knew I was close. 

    I think this carried on for about a minute. Afterwards my body (physical) had gone tense with excitement, and I think this had brought me back. This attempt was easily the best I have ever had. 

    I was very tired at the time and this may have had something to do with it. Since the last new moon, on most attempts, my arms have felt very much that they were out of my body. So I have been lifting out a bit. I've got eight days to the full moon. So I think it will be interesting to see what will happen. 

    

Date: Wednesday 26th September 1990

Astral Projection

I did it again early morning and it wasn't as strong, but I had a pressing need to go toilet. The feelings were quite strong and different than usual and the change of perspective is much more real now. I lost my concentration  through worrying about my poll tax summons. I did occasionally feel as thought I was moving but soon lost thought. Apart from this so there is definite progress there. My dreams say so and now I'm sure it is coming true. 

Date: Thursday 27th September 1990

Mood 5.2 Vividness s7.4

Big Wheel 4

I was just going upstairs and a letter came. I opened the door and there were different parcels. One was a massive six square foot picture. One was a Golden Dawn book, and one was GD tarot cards. 

    Then I was walking home along the Kettering Road and I realised the four was here on the racecourse, with a massive fairground wheel. I went up close and had a look. I heard a woman tell her children that in a fairground you can learn to see the elements. I went over to another tent and ordered dinner which was a roast and I went to sit down. I saw a sign that said no smoking but a young boy started up. Then a young boy, who in the dream was my friend, told me to sit with him. He told me that UFO's were people being initiated but I didn't believe him. 

    

Interpretation. Big Wheel 4

The first bit about letters probably means I'll actually get some because in waking like I'm waiting for their book. It may mean finding something out. 

     The wheel obviously shows the wheel of fortune. Not sure about the elementals. Perhaps it just shows a general occult theme. The tent shows the moment in my life each month feeling as thought I'm a different person. I think/hope ordering food and waiting for it shows the substance about to come to me. The writing part shows me waiting for it. The smoking part is real. I was in a restaurant and a woman told me to stop. The UFT shows my initiation has taken place inside even though I didn't recognise it. 

     

Same day, fell asleep again upstairs. 

5: Chocolate dream

I had a job selling tickets (unreadable) then I went in a shop to buy some chocolate, but I didn't dare get it because there were weird girls where it was. There was more chocolate on the counter and I thought about buying it, but it wasn't exactly what I wanted so I went out.

    I thought to myself that there's another sweet shop only a few feet away so I'll go there. I started and woke up before I got there. 

    

Interpretation 5: Chocolate Dream

The ticket part shows the thing I most want, Astral Projection, the shop also shows the same desire, once again, the the same day I dreamed of food. Last time I ordered it and waited for it. This time I went to a different shop to buy it. I'm not sure if this means I'll get it or nowt. If I hadn't woken up for the first time my food would have come, the second time I could have bought it in another shop. So it probably shows things to come. 

Date: Same Day

ASTRAL PROJECTION

I just tried again and although I didn't have the VERY strong lifting out feeling, I did feel complete movement a few times and my arms felt strongly as though they were turned the wrong way around. This may be because when I'm trying to feel my way into the body. I concentrated on the body's arms and trying to clench the fists. That possibly lifted my arms south more than the rest of me. I think next time I'll try somehow to feel the whole of my body. 

Date: Friday 28th September 1990

Mood 3.1 Vividness 5.1

Lift 6

I went to a Japanese girl's caravan and her sister came in and we all played together. 

    Then I was in a lift with loads of people. It wouldn't close because the people went right out the door and I wouldn't move. Then I got out and heard someone say I'd been stuck for 12 years. 

    

Saturday 29th September 1990

Mood 5.0 Vividness 7.6

Jungle Escape 7

I was reading my five year diary and saw it was made in 1929. I then went to the table and started reading about the occult in a book. I saw the tattvas and also the spheres of the Tree of LIfe with the shapes cut out according to their numbers, e.g., Yesod had nine sides. Then a punk girl came in after an Asian girlrwho were both followed by a family. So I called Ann and went upstairs. 

    Then I was in the Japanese Jungle and I was a soldier with other soldiers, and we had to get out. 

     We found a little murky river and all got in little boats and off we went. We were going along and were surrounded by floating leaves. Next time I looked we were all drifting on floating giant leaves. The vegetation was very dense. 

     Finally the foliage cleared and we were out in very wet fields of farmland. We looked over the walls that enclosed us and it was wall soggy marshland for as fast as I could see. 

     The I saw a house with another house nearby. We went there, about three of us, but some Japanese soldiers came with a Japanese woman and took her to the house. We all hid desperately. We got up and went to the other house. It was the other woman's children. They let us in and were really friendly. They gave me something to eat and some sandwiches for my friends. We left, and I gave the woman my moonstone and told her it would bring her dreams. 

     

Interpretation. Jungle Escape 7

This dream comes on the day I'm going to make an independence talisman and I'm sure it'd talking about that. 

    The first bit is me researching exactly how to make it and showing it'd being made because I didn't like the family I'm now with. 

    The bit in the jungle probably shows life is sad jungle, but because I'm a soldier, I'd prepared to fight through it. The river gives a way out even though it's difficult. The leaves show my talisman guiding me out (which is the best part of the dream). Emerging from the jungle shows progress. Looking over the wall shows me looking for a wayout and finding one. Hiding could mean hiding either from Ann or from difficulties and the hospitality shows hopefully independence, and the present shows giving of self to the new situation. 1929 reduces to 3, the number of Binah, the sphere I'd work in.

    

Date: Sunday 30th September 1990

Mood 5.2 ok Vividness 7.1

Birth/death 8

I was a waiter in a restaurant and someone (Ginger) asked me if a certain book about talismans worked and I told him I'd tried two already and they'd both worked. 

    Then I was with Brian and Mum and Brian was a farmer who had just beed ?unreadable. Some men rung up and asked me to ask him if he could help with their lambs being born. 

    Johnathan Pine was in my lounge and he stole a pen and Ann bought another. She wrote a letter to Geoff. It wrote too thick and she didn't like it. I looked in a magazine and saw an advertisment for a dinosaur exhibition on 27th September, poll October and I decided to go. 

    Then I was walking down the Kettering Road and Jason went to apply for a sewing job, but I needed through a crack and saw he didn't get it. 

    I carried on walking home with a girl crying on my shoulder and I realised I was wearing a sad tee-shirt which could make it worse. 

    

Interpretation Birth/death 8

The first part comes the night after I make my talisman, my second one, that could show they will work. 

    The farmer part shows their work in making a death of old, birth of new situation. 

    The letter probably shows me asking Geoff for an astral projection tape, which I asked him to get a minute ago, which he can do. Not sure about the dinosaur part or ?self, or the date. It'll have to wait for the 28th though. I think it was in September. I think perhaps the house part means me getting insight into Jason. I didn't know about the girl. 

    

Date: Tuesday 2nd October 1990

Mood OKish 4.7 Vividness 5.3

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