I was in Geoff's body and he was in mine. 

    I was then walking across a field with someone and was looking for help. My friend pointed to a bishop walking towards us and I asked him what I should do. 

    He directed me to a school. When I got there there was French graffiti all over the playground school with one English sentence which I can't remember. 

    Then I was at home on the patio. I tried to get in the outhouse and sit down. Once in I realised wasps might get in so I tried to patch up the gaps in the door. When I realised I couldn't I tried to use magick to keep them out. Then I got out the outhouse and sat on the patio. I had a glass of blue cloudy liquid. A wasp flew in there and disappeared to the bottom. All the liquid started bubbling and swirling around and then the wasp/bee drank it. All the liquid disappeared and the wasp grew/became fat with the extra volume of the liquid. 

    

Interpretation Help 9

The night I dreamt this, I was worried about my poll tax summons to appear in court on Thursday. I'd been down to pay seven pounds of my one hundred and forty pounds bill. When I got there they said before I signed on, even though I wasn't working, they considered me to be in full employment. Therefore I must pay the bill in full, or the baliffs would come on Friday.

    The dream first of all shows me looking for help. The school shows the whole thing is a learning process. The French messages show the confusing, but there is an overriding message. 

    Me in the outhouse shows me hiding away and not being able to, even with the help of magick. When I come out it shows the irritation will make me grow, even with a better awareness of life. 

    

Date Thursday 4th October 1990

Mood OKish 5.0 Vividness 4.1

Shopping 10

I went to a shop to buy some new boots. At the counter I saw they were holey and the man said I would have to get them re-soled. So I left them.

    Then I was in the occult shop and I bought twenty pounds worth of parchment, put some photo frames on the counter and painted them. 

    

Date: Friday 5th October 1990

Mood 5.7 Vividness 6.8

River Crossing 11

I was in the kitchen with Ann and Dion Fortune and Ann was mad, asking me what magickal wand I had made. She was frightened that it was too powerful, so she had called Dion Fortune to come and look at it. I got my fire wand and show it it to Mrs. Fortune and she approved. Then (unreadable) wasp in a glass of drink [Note: this last sentence is written in subscript].

    Then I was going downtown with Jason and we were crossing the road. It was really snowy. I slipped and brought Jason down with me. We got up and crossed the road. Jason turned into Winston Churchill. We were going down some stairs and Winston had to sit down and I left him because he couldn't go on any longer. I got to the bottom of the stairs and went out to a river. I crossed a rope bridge (just) and got to a hut in the river. Then I walked down a pontoon. At the bathroom an Indian girl was waiting for me and I was about to cross on a boat which she was going to swim in front and tow. Before I got in I stopped her and upon seeing how wide the river was, I asked her if it was safe. 

    

Interpretation Shopping 10

This is very easy to do. The first part shows me being dissatisfied with my poll tax demand. The second says I'll buy something of worth from the occult shop and that day I bought the book for formation. 

River Crossing 11

The first part in the kitchen shows  the dream is connected to my occult life. The bit with the wasp shows learning from irritation once again except the liquid was white this time.     

    The road shows me falling for some ?unreadable and I bring Jason down with me. Perhaps it means when I first met him I got him into the occult without knowing much about it. Then we both crossed a road. I found a Golden Dawn book, and he found shamanism. Then he turned into Winston Churchill, meaning he became a stubborn old man. When it was time to go down, possibly into the mind, but it must be better because it was so sunny at the bottom. He'd had enough and I'll have to leave him behind. 

    I got to the river and crossed to new experience and I'll meet a more ?estoric part of myself or the universe in the guise of the mystical Indian woman. This mystical 'thing' will cross me over a river to a new foreign ?esoteric/exotic life experience and I may hesitate. 

    

Date: Sunday 7th October 1990

Mood 5.2 Vividness [unstated]

Jew 12

I was in a Jewish hall writing a book with a friend. I drew a picture of her (Annette Baker). 

    Then I looked over a lake and saw people using. One man had a line with many different baits on it and he showed me. 

    Then I was hiding behind a police car with a friend and the police were looking for me. I gave myself up 

    

Interpretation Jew 12

The bit in the Jewish place shows writing a book and expressing myself. The lake shows the possiblity for deep insights to come through. 

    The police shows doing what's right. 

    

Date: Tuesday 8th October 1990

Mood 5.3 Vividness 7.4

Walker 13

I was in a car with Mum driving. She was going to the airport to pick up Geoff's friend who in real like is in America looking for a tape I want to help me Astrally project. She dropped me off at a forest and said she'd come back when she got it/him. I walked into the trees and went a little way, then turned to come back on the road. On the way I saw a ball balanced on a bush. I had thrown there earlier, like a few days ago. Then I was back on the road. I was at a crossroads. To my left a woman went before me ?a man went. I realised whenever someone went too far the forest rangers would come and pick them up. I saw between the two roads there was a very steep hill with an old iron fence by it covered with trees. [Note: there's a hand drawn map here].

    I used the fence to pull myself it. It was very steep indeed. When I got to the top after almost falling a couple of times I was VERY high, on a kind of bridge, which went over the water. A voice inside told me to get down I could go the way I came, jump on the ground or jump in the river. I looked down and didn't dare do either. Then I became aware of my body in bed, while still seeing myself on the bridge. I realised I was dreaming and couldn't be hurt because my body was safely in bed at home. I thought what I should do and decided to open my eyes and wake up, which I did. 

    

Interpretation Bridge 13

The first part shows next Sunday. Geoff's friend should be back with my tape about astral projection. Mother leaves me in a forest of my unconscious where I go into it, then have to come out which I think, including the ball a the top of the bush, is my goal and awareness of it. 

    Then I come to a crossroads where I had to make a choice. I decided to pick the hard route of Astral projection. After a period of hard work I got to the bridge between the conscious and the unconscious. There I realised nothing can hurt me in my inner forest because I am also at home in bed. It will be intetesting to see if Geoff's friend can find the tape. 

    

Date: Wednesday 9th October 1990

Mood 4.5 (HEADACHE) Vividness 4.3

Spirit 14

I saw a dead wasp. 

    Then I went in the occult shop and saw my slimming drink, but it wasn't the same make as I like so I didn't buy it. 

    Then I went to a spiritualist meeting. There was a computer on the platform. A dead person was speaking to relatives through the computer. A woman gave me a brass bowl to look after until next time I came. 

    Then I was somewhere and I threw a knife into the brass bowl.

    Then I was in a cafe and Darren remarked on my bowl having holes in it. 

    

Interpretation Spirit 14

Not sure, perhaps I'll see through something. 

Date: Saturday, 12th October 1990

Astral Projection

I was almost lifted out again. Not as much as last time. Also, I was on my own again like last time. Ann was next door. I think I've got the trick of feeling my way into the body now. Geoff says my tape won't be here until next Saturday now. I wonder what that means (the dream?). 

Same day. Dream 

Ear Cleaner 15

I was at school in a classroom being touchy by a giant cotton ?tool stick that you usually clean your ears with. I looked at it seething with anger. I got up and walked towards it. It ran off out the classroom. I went to go home but as I left the classroom my legs turned heay and I couldn't walk. I realised I was dreaming and flew out the school and circled it in the air. 

Interpretation 15

It means I didn't want to listen at school. Almost LUCID. 

Date: Monday 14th October

Mood bad 1.2 (row). Vividness 3.4

Fog Alley 16

I was walking down the alley with Jason and putting cigarette packets on the floor at the back of each door. When I got home John Lovette was there and I had a row with Ann. 

Interpretation Fog Alley 16

I'd had a massive row with Ann before I went to bed. The cigarette shows because I smoke and she buys them. I find it difficult to leave. John at home shows the situation has occult significance. 

Same day: Astral Projection

I think I've found a new way of trying. Once in the body of light, I feel my feet up to my head, slightly moving the ??? My way in. Then look through my eyes in the hope they'll open. I did this today for five times. I'll carry on increasing by five each day. 

Date: Thursday 17th October 1990

Mood OK 5.2 Vividness 5.3

Shark Attack 17

I was on a ship/submarine and a shark came next to the boat. I pressed a bomb and blew it up. Then I was on deck and Ipressed a button that let all the guns out and the captain told me off. 

Interpretation Shark attack 17

I think I'll get rid of something in my subconscious and another part of me won't like the ?defences.

Date: Friday 26th October 1990

Mood OK 5.2 Vividness 6.7

Years Ago. 18. 

I had a kind of market stall with canvas over it and it resembled a tent. I was eating my dinner while reading a cookbook. Then I hung stolen cocktails on a line to sell them. Two people who were running the stall with me came back and said the police were coming, so I hid the cocktails. The police came and I got done. I looked out and it was pouring with rain. I saw my brother who in the dream ran away years ago. I sat and looked at my pentacle and some of the paint had chipped off. I told Geoff he was never generous. 

Interpretation Years Ago 18

This shows mum + dad used to have a market stall. As bad as it was it was a learning experience. When I looked at the pentacle, I realised it looked better without paint. So it didn't bother me. This shows getting rid of stuff I don't need. 