Date 11th August 1991.
Pills Prescribed = 100
Remaining = 64
Total Taken = 36
2 dropped into a wicker chair and lost, therefore not taken
Total Amount actually taken = 34 (over around 9 weeks).
Reasons.
Anxiety when out. Usual Symptoms:
Out in Crowds or unfamiliar Situations.
Start off feeling normal.
Symptoms can either start for no reason or may be Sparked off by being trapped in a new Situation or unfamiliar surroundings.
Symptoms include: Trembling, mainly of hands but occasionally all limbs. Prickly Sweat down back that feels like needles. Being rooted to spot, Unable to move. Feeling of being watched by everyone.
Butterflies in Stomach.
Common Causes / Situations
Crowds, noise, new things. “Trapped Situations” Cafés, Pubs, Shops, new people etc.
Insomnia 8.
Symptoms: Being awake for long periods without tiredness whatsoever. Occasionally caused by fear of a task to be performed next day, Usually without reason.
New Job 10 taken. enclosed Space. + Very bad at New Faces.
Rows 7.
After fights at home usually begin to clean obsessively and throw away belongings such as tapes and books etc. Sudden need to own as little as possible.
Dentist / Careers, 2.
Needed to go dentist. Usual symptoms of Anxiety. Painful. Same day straight afterward symptoms returned before an appointment to see about going back to college.
Friday 16th August.
Have to go to balloon fair and a friend had got me a ticket to go to a 3 day Rock festival. I had to ring him up at 7 and began to feel jumpy and panicky.
2 taken.
Sunday 18th August.
Didn’t wake up until 11am and had to work next day. 1 taken to Sleep early.
1 taken.
Date: Wed 21 Aug 91.
College Interview. Anxiety at Strange situation. Sweating. 2 taken
Same Day.
Panicking feelings over Concert booked tomorrow. Nervousness and despair. Urge to run away.
1 taken.
Thursday 22nd August.
Have to go to 3 day Concert event. No way out of it. Also Can’t afford usual 30 Cigarettes a day. Leave 3pm. Absolutely terrified. Also terrified of violence or attack while there.
A.M. Town. Nothing Taken.
Terrified before Car arrives. Adrenaline almost doubles over torso. 2 taken.
Journey in car one more 1
Out in Crowd of strange people + Situation and place. Noise. Couldn’t Stop thinking whole 40,000 people was all watching me. 2 taken.
2am. in bed. Still noises outside, Frightened may be murdered / raped in tent. Can’t Sleep + imagining Terrible things outside. 2 taken.
Friday 23rd August.
Town center or reading Strange. Longing to be home back too far. felt desperately Suicidal when woke and didn’t dare come out. Town + Tent 3 taken, 1 in restaurant = 4
2 for Concert in evening. Trapped in Crowd and Couldn’t turn round to escape.
Saturday 24th August.
General Anxiety + Shivering. Not quite So desperate. 2 morning + Evening = 4
Sunday 25th August 1991.
2 taken for insomnia.
Monday 26th August
Much better. Not So Strange. Got used to it. Look forward to home NIL.
TOTAL (for 5 days). 19
O.K When home.
Date: Monday 2nd September. 91
Time 4:25pm
Have to enroll at College today. Got up at eleven yesterday and couldn’t sleep at all last night. Been up 2 days now and have usual symptoms of shaking, Sweating, Sense of forebode except worse. Haven’t taken anything yet but will take 2 at 5 and possibly 2 more once there. Will keep last 2 in pocket and only take if symptoms reappear.
Symptoms did reappear but I took two more. Once inside they returned but it was too late for medication. Bolted. Ran out and kept running until back home.
Wednesday 4th September.
Back at Weston favell found in cafe to re-try to enroll again. ONLY 2 to be taken at 5:30 (4:35 now) then to just go in. Last attempt was probably hindered by tiredness also. Fine today, though didn’t get up until late. Anxiety symptoms approaching now.
3 Actually taken.
Monday 16th September.
College Started. Two taken prior to going in. One More as lesson Started. A while into the lesson the symptoms reappeared and rapidly began to panic. One more taken. Satisfactory, though the symptoms have far from disappeared. 4
Tuesday 17th September
College Soon. Taking 2 caffine Supplements to dispel tiredness due to insomnia.
Will take 4 before lesson & keep 2 free if symptoms appear
Took 4.
Thursday 18th Sept.
Psychology class Usual symptoms, 3 taken
Monday 23rd Sept.
English class. Last one was awful and almost left, though through general depression rather than symptoms or usual anxiety. 2 to be taken to get-in & one in reserve in case of reappearance of symptoms.
3 taken.
Tuesday 24th Sept.
1 taken, for English.
Thursday 26th Sept.
Psychology. Shaky going in. 1 taken 1 in reserve. (not taken).
1 taken.
Monday 30th Sept.
Nothing taken.
Tuesday 31st Sept.
Nothing taken.
Thursday 2nd Oct.
Quite bad for psychology. Still, mainly because no room is available so I’m unsure where to be. While I’m looking I kept getting the urge to leave.
Thursday 10th October
Psychology. Permanent room found. _nothing_ taken.
Tuesday 15th October
1 taken for appointment in business Studies which missed after running out in a panic because it was too dark.
Original Uncorrected Text with handwriting notes
Date 11th August 1991.
Pills Prescribed = 100
Remaining = 64
Total Taken = 36
2 dropped into a wicker chair and lost, there fore not taken
Total Amount actually taken = 34 (over around 9 weeks).
Reasons.
Anxiety when out. Usual Symptoms!
Out in Crowds or unfamiliar Situations.
Start off feeling normal.
Symptoms can either Start for no reason or may be Sparked off by being trapped in a new Situation or unfamiliar Surroundings.
Symptoms include: Trembling, mainly of hands but occasionally all limbs. Prickly Sweat down back that feels like needles. Being rooted to Spot, Unable to move. Feeling of being watched by everyone.
Butterflies in Stomach.
Common Causes / Situations
Crowds, noise, new things. “Trapped Situations” Cafès, Pubs, Shops, new people ect.
Insomnia 8.
Symptoms: Being awake for long periods without tierdness what so ever. Occasionally caused by fear of a task to be performed next day, Usually without reason.
New Job 10 taken. enclosed Space. + Very bad at New Faces.
Rows 7.
After fights at home usually begin to clean obsessively and throw away belongings Such as tapes and books ect. Sudden need to own as little as possible.
Dentist / Careers, 2.
Needed to go dentist. Usual symptoms of Anxiety. Painful. Same day straight afterward symptoms returned before an appointment to see about going back to collage.
Friday 16th August.
Have to go to balloon fair and a friend had got me a ticket to go to a 3 day Rock festival. I had to ring him up at 7 and began to feel jumpy and panicky.
2 taken.
Sunday 18th August.
Didn’t wake up until 11am and had to work next day. 1 taken to Sleep early.
1 taken.
Date: Wed 21 Aug 91.
Collage Interview. Anxiety at Strange situation. Sweating. 2 taken
Same Day.
Panicking feelings over Concert booked tommorow. Nervousness and despair. Urge to run away.
1 taken.
Thursday 22nd August.
Have to go to 3 day Concert event. No way out of it. Also Can’t afford usual 30 Ciggarettes a day. Leave 3pm. Absolutely terrified. Also terrified of violence or attack while there.
A.M. Town.
Nothing Taken.
Terrified before Car arrives. Adrenalin almost doubles over torso. 2 taken.
Journey in car one more 1
Out in Crowd of Strange people + Situation and place Noise. Couldn’t Stop thinking whole 40,000 people was all watching me. 2 taken.
2am. in bed. Still noises outside, Frightened may be murdered / raped in tent. Can’t Sleep + imagining Terrible things outside. 2 taken.
Friday 23rd August.
Town center or reading Strange. Longing to be home back too far. felt desperately Suicidal when woke and didn’t dare come out. Town + Tent 3 taken, 1 in ?account = 4
2 for Concert in evening Trapped in Crowd and Couldn’t turn round to escape.
Saturday 24th August.
General Anxiety + Shivering. Not quite So desperate. 2 morning + Evening = 4
Sunday 25th August 1991.
2 taken for insomnia.
Monday 26th August
Much better. Not So Strange Got used to it. Look forward to home NIL.
TOTAL (for 5 days). 19
O.K When home.
Date: Monday 2nd September. 91
Time 4:45pm
Have to enroll at Collage today. Got up at eleven yesterday and couldn’t sleep at all last night. Been up 2 days now and have usual symptoms of Shaking, Sweating, Sense of forebode except worse. Haven’t taken anything yet but will take 2 at 5 and possibly 2 moe once there. Will keep last 2 in pocket and only take if symptoms re appear.
Symptoms did re-appear but I took two more. Once inside they returned but it was too late for medication. Bolted. Ran out and kept running until back home.
Wednesday 4th September.
Back at Weston found in cafe to re-try to enrol again. ONLY 2 to be taken at 5:30 (4:35 now) then to just go in. Last attempt was probably hindered by tierdness also. Fine today, though didn’t get up until late. Anxiety symptoms approaching now.
3 Actually taken.
Monday 16th September.
Collage Started. Two taken prior to going in. One More as lesson Started. A while into the lesson the symptoms re-appeared and rapidly began to panic. One more taken. Satisfactory, though the symptoms have far from dissappeared. 4
Tuesday 17th September
Collage Soon. Taking 2 Garlic Supplements to despell tierdness due to insomnia.
Will take 4 before lesson & keep 2 free if symptoms appear
Took 4.
Thursday 18th Sept.
Psychology class Usual symptoms, 3 taken
Monday 23rd Sept.
English class. Last one was awful and almost left, though through general depression rather than symptoms or usual anxiety. 2 to be taken to get-in & one in reserve incase of re-appearance of symptoms.
3 taken.
Tuesday 24th Sept.
1 taken, for English.
Thursday 26th Sept.
Psychology. Shaky going in. 1 taken 1 in reserve. (not taken).
1 taken.
Monday 30th Sept.
Nothing taken.
Tuesday 31st Sept.
Nothing taken.
Thursday 2nd Sept.
Quite bad for psychology. Still, mainly because no room is available so I’m unsure where to be. While I’m looking I kept getting the urge to leave.
Thursday 10th October
Psychology. Permanent room found. nothing taken.
Tuesday 15th October
1 taken for appointment in bussiness Studies which missed after running out in a panic because it was too dark.
Handwriting Note: The author frequently writes logically conflicting or impossible dates (e.g., a “Thursday 18th” directly following “Monday 16th” and “Tuesday 17th”, or “Tuesday 31st Sept”). Phonetic spelling variations continue to be prominent, specifically “tierdness”, “dissappeared”, “despell”, “incase” (written as one word), and “bussiness”. Under “Thursday 2nd Sept”, the word “Sept” appears to have a single line struck through it, though it remains fully legible and was transcribed.
Handwriting Note: The author has a few consistent phonetic spelling habits, most notably writing “etc.” as “ect.” and “college” as “collage”. There is also a distinct pattern of adding random capitalization to nouns, adjectives, or verbs mid-sentence—particularly those related to their symptoms, environment, or state of mind (e.g., “Strange”, “Concert”, “Sleep”, “Adrenalin”). Cursive ‘r’s are occasionally written quite flat and tightly looped, almost resembling an ‘e’.
Prompt: Persona: You are an expert Paleographer and Archival Transcriber specializing in late 20th-century personal diaries. Your goal is to create a high-fidelity “Life Corpus” for archival purposes.
Task: Provide a verbatim transcription of the uploaded diary images following these strict rules:
* Formatting: Ignore physical line breaks and narrow columns. Output text in standard, full-width paragraphs. Only start a new paragraph if there is a clear indentation, a blank line, or a date change in the diary.
* Clean Text: Ensure no random extra spaces or “hallucinated” characters appear between words.
* Literal Accuracy: Transcribe every word exactly as written. Do not correct spelling, do not fix grammar, and do not summarize. If a word is written “incorrectly,” preserve it exactly as it appears.
* Uncertainty: If a word is difficult to read, make your best guess based on the context and preface it with a question mark (e.g., ?example). If it is completely unreadable, use [unclear].
* Note on Style: Treat this as a historical document. Preserve the original “voice” without any AI editorializing or commentary.
Transcription Feedback: At the end of each batch, if you noticed a recurring handwriting quirk (e.g., “the letter ‘s’ consistently looks like ‘5’”), please leave a brief “Handwriting Note” to help refine future accuracy.
My instruction additions:
when a word begins in mid sentence but the first letter is s ometimes the s is slightly different and it looks larger as though it’s capitalized but it’s just different because it’s the first word of a letter so it’s written full form but he should actually be lower case it’s only a capital if it’s obviously the start of a sentence.
Sometimes it’s difficult to see a full stop at the end of a sentence but if a capital letter occurs after where they could logically be a full stop then you might assume that it there is actually a full stop there and the sentences dramatically correct and put the full stop in this correct place.
Handwriting Quirk – Digit “4”:
The writer never uses a triangular or “closed-top” 4. All 4s are written as “open-top” 4s, resembling an “L” shape with a single vertical stroke intersecting the horizontal bar. Do not misinterpret these as “L,” “y,” or “h.” If you see a character resembling a cross or an open-top chair, it is likely the number 4.
don’t ever ignore illegible words just put a question mark at the start of it and make the best guess and I’ll take a look please indicate underlying words by enclosing in underscores