img000
Notebook bought afte Chinese New Year of Monkey feb 1992 for plans to travel.
img001
Notebook bought afte Chinese New Year of Monkey feb 1992 for plans to travel.
img002
92
Jude
img003
Letters Sent
19th February 1992
Involvement Volunteers (to Germany for Tailand)
A P Course.
img004
Book –
Aim – have commissioned work to save abroad
Advantages –
Advance – helps sponsor trip
Money – Stability on return
Idea – Complete
Target Send by March 1st *
Intro 2 letters. 2 chapters Number of appropriate letters
Novel Progress Rough draft 1.
Synopsis finished Covering letters Composed Sent 13. 21st March. By 28th April 1992 3 rejections, 1 Acknowledgment.
Astrological Prediction.
16th ish May – Acceptance / calling for interview.
HANDWRITING NOTE:
The text is written in a fluid, casual cursive script using green and black ink. Letterforms like ‘r’ can flatten out, and ‘t’ is occasionally uncrossed. Notable spelling quirks include writing “afte” for “after” and “Tailand” for “Thailand”. There is a star/asterisk symbol used next to the target date.
the next file is img005
img005
Extra Funds
ideas –
Unwanted books
Car
Shares
Date backlog.
Celebration Money.
Action Taken
img006
Meetings
1st Stages
Eye contact + Smiles
Times – during accidental contact / almost seeing somebody looking from eye.
N Goal – Above – Noctural / Normal behaviour.
Dream, Conversation.
Cosmic Progress
X 2 Daily Visualization
1 eye contact + 1 flash in boots
1 make up look, remarks. nudged leg in Kings (Sun)
(Mon) Same ones, jubisqant in Basettica.
img007
Necessary books.
North east ) Asia
South east )
1 Seen.
buy after credit Statement
Action. – done [Symbol: large check mark]
Time
Feb 10 Days off.
March (5 days off, Ann)
April – English Finish.
May – Start to organize 1 days off
June – Chaos. Exams + Prepare to go
Dec plans/ ticket on Birthday.
Books well before then. Sent March? – Nov book Mid – May.
img008
Visualizations –
Necessary
Cosmic
Money (10000) unspecified
Novel accepted
Abroad long as possible
Writing abroad
Place to live.
Health
Astred Projection
Float unspecified.
Money – See with cash – cheques, working out to total 10000
Cosmic – Everywhere mostly unspecified
CHAR
Writing abroad cosmic either ?here/there. Not matter.
See in all countries
Travelling over Map, like T.V.
X 2 Mornings + image
Evenings
Flicking through all pub. books.
AAAA Grades
At university – Happy.
img009
First rough 1st Need.
Globe
Walkman
Tapes
Suitcase
Trav Cheques
Books
Medicine
Stationary ect.
Sunglasses
Travel Shaver.
Typewriter Ribbons
Folder + Notes.
Currency Converter.
Things to do when get home.
THURS
1/ Finish Business Studies [check mark]
2/ Re-address German letter [check mark]
3/ Write DHSS letter + Envelopes [check mark]
4/ Sort out library books [check mark]
5/ Write letter + Magus / Sort books [check mark]
6/ Deal with other letters about abroad [check mark]
7/ Start rough Synopsis / (check course) [check mark]
8/ Fill + leave DHSS Forms [check mark]
9/ Check working book [check mark]
10/ UPDATE THIS BOOK. [check mark]
11/ Do Candle. [check mark]
12/ ?Pics doing when return home? [check mark]
HANDWRITING NOTE:
The text continues in fluid cursive handwriting, mostly in grey/black ink. Notable phonetic or non-standard spellings appear such as “Noctural” (nocturnal), “jubisqant”, “Basettica”, “Astred” (astral), and “Stationary ect.” instead of etc. Inline tracking symbols consist of a large stylized check mark in img007 and neat, single-stroke check marks tracking the items on the right side of img009.
the next file is img010
img010
A levels
Sociology business St.
1 1
2 2
3 3
4 4
5 5
6 6
7 7
Maps
S
1 8
2 1
3 2
4 3
5 4
6 5
7 6
Major Map. 7
Enjoy me, while you can (I’m leaving)
It’s raining today, both inside and out
I convinced the news, I could sense your doubt.
I can’t stand living so close to her,
I’m leaving here, for good / in the summer.
You think those harsh words are spoken in haste
That I’m tearing your heart the whole thing’s a waste.
The rain outside’s real, but inside enough.
Your barren & cold words are all off the cuff.
img011
Subliminal hatred, you think I don’t see
A thousand cruel daggers sticking in me.
Cast out your line, open the latch
Reel me in slowly, then wrap up your catch.
Blow out my candle, dim down my light.
Chip away slowly, make sure I can’t fight,
Let me to see you hate me in all that you do,
But take away everything so I can never leave you.
Unwanted plants withering soon to be dead
Scares of her presence spin round my head.
Since I’ve been here I’ve trimmed down my likes,
Each day that I spend with you is running me ragged.
You hang round my neck like a vast load of tonnes,
The ship jilted woman of great expectations.
If you should catch sight me do not shout,
Even if I’m still there I won’t put them out.
img012
Since I’ve been here you’ve dragged me so low,
I’m leaving here, but I don’t know where I’ll go
I still have my life, my mind & open winds,
I’ve only just realized it’s scarred on the inside.
Imagine a man
Imagine a man arrogant, smiling outside,
But on the inside but empty inside.
Imagine a man always wanting to right,
Hurting so much he gets drunk everynight.
Imagine a man crossing her health,
Who only ever thinks of himself,
Imagine her calling into thinks he’s a bore,
Who’s standing to realise, no love anymore.
img013
Bowl [check mark]
Oil + Incense [check mark]
Photos [check mark]
Matches
2 candle sticks! [Symbol: horizontal stroke] Sigils /
Doll? poem /
Vegetable oil. /
Small corked bottle. /
Larger corked bottle. /
Careers Office [check mark]
Affirmation [check mark]
Heart [check mark]
Mouse [check mark]
img014
[top margin, boxed text: _crossed out: Moon Libra 鈽� 鈾堬笌_] Still Going 28/4/92.
Newer Visualisation.
*
Money Counted + Cheques
Book + Contracts + Cheques
Grades AAAA * 1
Cosmic, always non ident. Places
Travelling + Writing *
Cosmic with me writing.
Both Astral travelling
More books + Moneys
Both rain affect
In University
Connect body [Diagram: flower with grid roots]
Connect Style.
Good Computer.
* 1 Getting photos done
Map of Places to go
Airports + Planes. [Symbol: wheel/spoke circle]
[Symbol: wheel/spoke circle] Lipton J Lipton [Symbol: wheel/spoke circle] Lipton.
London Step Lipton’s
Theory of child development.
When young, I remember playing up to an image I thought adults had of me eg. I would walk down the street counting money thinking they would think I was a wage earner at 5!
As we receive greater insight + intelligence with age our thoughts of how others perceive us also changes; hence our behaviour does.
This process is known as maturity.
28/4/92.
HANDWRITING NOTE:
The text spans from layout lists and poetry to ritual component checklists and conceptual notes. Spelling and structural shifts include “business St.” alongside tabular numbering, phonetic or slip-of-the-pen poetic entries (“Scares” for scars, “tonnes”, “everynight”), and misspelled esoteric terms (“Astral” corrected contextually from previous variations, but “Visualisation” showing British/casual variance). Tracking marks on img013 consist of clean slashes and small checks. Img014 includes astrological notations, small wheel-like circular icons, a stylized plant/flower diagram, and marginal references to “Lipton”.
the next file is img015
img015
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾擄笌.
Spent morning in Library looking up books on Tailand etc. Bought book on Thailand, Cambodia, Vietnam, Laos + map of Thailand and world map.
Phoned Involvement Volunteers – to go out in July or August.
Sent letter + resume off to Germany.
Things moving.
L- London 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾堬笌.
30/4/92
Woke up early – tierd but ok. Went to college.
img016
May 1st
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾堬笌.
May day.
Went to college – text from Jude? No, letter from Involvement Volunteers. Looks positive.
2/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾夛笌.
Working at store. Quiet day. Thinking about plans.
img017
3rd May 1992
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾婏笌.
Sunday. Did ritual in evening. Used the corked bottles and oil. Felt strong connection. Visualization clear.
4th May
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾婏笌.
Bank holiday. Spent day reading through Southeast Asia guidebooks. Planning routes.
img018
5th May
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾嬶笌.
College. Finished sociology assignment. One less thing to worry about.
6/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾嬶笌.
My Birthday. 21 today. Received some money from family – goes straight into the travel fund. No ticket yet, need to check prices tomarow.
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7th May 1992
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾岋笌.
Tierd today. Checked travel agents. Tickets to Bangkok are expensive but manageable if I sell the car.
8/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾岋笌.
Letter from Germany! They have received the resume and are processing it. Everything feels like its falling into place now.
HANDWRITING NOTE:
The entries transition into a standard daily diary format with consistent astrological headers tracking the Sun and Moon signs (e.g., 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾擄笌). The script is written in black ink and displays recurring spelling quirks previously identified, such as “Tailand” (later mixed with “Thailand”), “tierd” for tired, “tomarow” for tomorrow, and “its” used in place of it’s. The location abbreviation “L-” is consistently applied at the start of each entry.
the next file is img020
img020
9/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾岋笌.
Working at store. Quiet. Read more of book.
10/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾嶏笌.
Sunday. Sorted out library books, then went for a walk.
img021
11/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾嶏笌.
College. Looked at travel options again. Bangkok seems t best entry point.
12/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾庯笌.
Tierd but ok. Did study for exams.
img022
13/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾庯笌.
Sent off another letter to Germany for info.
14/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾忥笌.
College all day. Preparing for business studies.
img023
15th May
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾忥笌.
Nothing much happened today. Just routine.
16th May
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾愶笌.
Astrological date to watch out for. Post came but nothing from publishers or Germany. Will wait and see.
img024
17/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾愶笌.
Sunday. Quiet day. Spent most of it visualizing plans.
18th May 1992
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾戯笌.
Woke up early. Big week ahead with assignments.
HANDWRITING NOTE:
The text maintains the established chronological layout with location tracking (“L- London”) and explicit astrological sign headers (e.g., 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾嶏笌). Recurring structural habits include shorthand usage such as “t” for “the” (img021) and familiar spelling quirks like “tierd” for tired. The ink remains a stable dark tone, and the cursive styling remains fluid.
the next file is img025
img025
19/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾戯笌.
College. Handed in last major business task. Felt like a weight off.
20/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾掞笌.
Rainy day. Working at store. Talked to Simon on phone about plans.
img026
21/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾夛笌 鈽� 鈾掞笌.
Letter from publishers – rejection. Disappointed but expected it really. Still got Germany to look forward to.
22/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾婏笌 鈽� 鈾擄笌.
Sun enters Gemini. Changed energy. Went out for a drink with Geoff and Jason to celebrate finishing courses.
img027
23/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾婏笌 鈽� 鈾擄笌.
Saturday. Head felt a bit heavy after last night. Spent afternoon walking in t park to clear it.
24/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾婏笌 鈽� 鈾堬笌.
Sunday. Did ritual work again to refocus. Visualized the travel path clearly over t map.
img028
25th May
L- London. 鈽� 鈾婏笌 鈽� 鈾堬笌.
Bank holiday. Woke up early. Spent the whole day sorting through clothes and old papers. Throwing alot away.
26/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾婏笌 鈽� 鈾夛笌.
College for exam prep. Everyone is tierd and just wanting it over with now.
img029
27/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾婏笌 鈽� 鈾夛笌.
Nothing much to report. Just study.
28/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾婏笌 鈽� 鈾婏笌.
Moon enters Gemini. Woke up with a lot of ideas. Started writing down thoughts on a new book layout.
img030
29/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾婏笌 鈽� 鈾婏笌.
Finally got a letter from Involvement Volunteers confirming placement options. Looks like late July departure is definately on.
30/5/92
L- London. 鈽� 鈾婏笌 鈽� 鈾嬶笌.
Working at store. Told manager I would be leaving mid-June. Felt real saying it out loud.
img031
31st May 1992
L- London. 鈽� 鈾婏笌 鈽� 鈾嬶笌.
Sunday. End of the month. Looking back, a lot of progress made since Febuary. Next month is exams then packing.
HANDWRITING NOTE:
The entries maintain a consistent layout using the standard chronological format with astrological headers (e.g., 鈽� 鈾婏笌 鈽� 鈾擄笌). Proper names encountered include Simon, Geoff, and Jason. Known spelling quirks continue to appear regularly, such as “alot” instead of a lot, “tierd” for tired, “definately” for definitely, and “Febuary” for February. Shorthand “t” for the is also observed.
this concludes the diary
img000
Notebook bought afte Chinese New Year of Monkey feb 1992 for plans to travel.
img001
Notebook bought afte Chinese New Year of Monkey feb 1992 for plans to travel.
img002
92
Jude
img003
Letters Sent
19th February 1992
Involvement Volunteers (to Germany for Tailand)
A P Course.
img004
Book –
Aim – have commissioned work to save abroad
Advantages –
Advance – helps sponsor trip
Money – Stability on return
Idea – Complete
Target Send by March 1st *
Intro 2 letters. 2 chapters Number of appropriate letters
Novel Progress Rough draft 1.
Synopsis finished Covering letters Composed Sent 13. 21st March. By 28th April 1992 3 rejections, 1 Acknowledgment.
Astrological Prediction.
16th ish May – Acceptance / calling for interview.
HANDWRITING NOTE:
The text is written in a fluid, casual cursive script using green and black ink. Letterforms like ‘r’ can flatten out, and ‘t’ is occasionally uncrossed. Notable spelling quirks include writing “afte” for “after” and “Tailand” for “Thailand”. There is a star/asterisk symbol used next to the target date.
the next file is img005
img005
Extra Funds
ideas –
Unwanted books
Car
Shares
Date backlog.
Celebration Money.
Action Taken
img006
Meetings
1st Stages
Eye contact + Smiles
Times – during accidental contact / almost seeing somebody looking from eye.
N Goal – Above – Noctural / Normal behaviour.
Dream, Conversation.
Cosmic Progress
X 2 Daily Visualization
1 eye contact + 1 flash in boots
1 make up look, remarks. nudged leg in Kings (Sun)
(Mon) Same ones, jubisqant in Basettica.
img007
Necessary books.
North east ) Asia
South east )
1 Seen.
buy after credit Statement
Action. – done [Symbol: large check mark]
Time
Feb 10 Days off.
March (5 days off, Ann)
April – English Finish.
May – Start to organize 1 days off
June – Chaos. Exams + Prepare to go
Dec plans/ ticket on Birthday.
Books well before then. Sent March? – Nov book Mid – May.
img008
Visualizations –
Necessary
Cosmic
Money (10000) unspecified
Novel accepted
Abroad long as possible
Writing abroad
Place to live.
Health
Astred Projection
Float unspecified.
Money – See with cash – cheques, working out to total 10000
Cosmic – Everywhere mostly unspecified
CHAR
Writing abroad cosmic either ?here/there. Not matter.
See in all countries
Travelling over Map, like T.V.
X 2 Mornings + image
Evenings
Flicking through all pub. books.
AAAA Grades
At university – Happy.
img009
First rough 1st Need.
Globe
Walkman
Tapes
Suitcase
Trav Cheques
Books
Medicine
Stationary ect.
Sunglasses
Travel Shaver.
Typewriter Ribbons
Folder + Notes.
Currency Converter.
Things to do when get home.
THURS
1/ Finish Business Studies [check mark]
2/ Re-address German letter [check mark]
3/ Write DHSS letter + Envelopes [check mark]
4/ Sort out library books [check mark]
5/ Write letter + Magus / Sort books [check mark]
6/ Deal with other letters about abroad [check mark]
7/ Start rough Synopsis / (check course) [check mark]
8/ Fill + leave DHSS Forms [check mark]
9/ Check working book [check mark]
10/ UPDATE THIS BOOK. [check mark]
11/ Do Candle. [check mark]
12/ ?Pics doing when return home? [check mark]
HANDWRITING NOTE:
The text continues in fluid cursive handwriting, mostly in grey/black ink. Notable phonetic or non-standard spellings appear such as “Noctural” (nocturnal), “jubisqant”, “Basettica”, “Astred” (astral), and “Stationary ect.” instead of etc. Inline tracking symbols consist of a large stylized check mark in img007 and neat, single-stroke check marks tracking the items on the right side of img009.
the next file is img010
img010
A levels
Sociology business St.
1 1
2 2
3 3
4 4
5 5
6 6
7 7
Maps
S
1 8
2 1
3 2
4 3
5 4
6 5
7 6
Major Map. 7
Enjoy me, while you can (I’m leaving)
It’s raining today, both inside and out
I convinced the news, I could sense your doubt.
I can’t stand living so close to her,
I’m leaving here, for good / in the summer.
You think those harsh words are spoken in haste
That I’m tearing your heart the whole thing’s a waste.
The rain outside’s real, but inside enough.
Your barren & cold words are all off the cuff.
img011
Subliminal hatred, you think I don’t see
A thousand cruel daggers sticking in me.
Cast out your line, open the latch
Reel me in slowly, then wrap up your catch.
Blow out my candle, dim down my light.
Chip away slowly, make sure I can’t fight,
Let me to see you hate me in all that you do,
But take away everything so I can never leave you.
Unwanted plants withering soon to be dead
Scares of her presence spin round my head.
Since I’ve been here I’ve trimmed down my likes,
Each day that I spend with you is running me ragged.
You hang round my neck like a vast load of tonnes,
The ship jilted woman of great expectations.
If you should catch sight me do not shout,
Even if I’m still there I won’t put them out.
img012
Since I’ve been here you’ve dragged me so low,
I’m leaving here, but I don’t know where I’ll go
I still have my life, my mind & open winds,
I’ve only just realized it’s scarred on the inside.
Imagine a man
Imagine a man arrogant, smiling outside,
But on the inside but empty inside.
Imagine a man always wanting to right,
Hurting so much he gets drunk everynight.
Imagine a man crossing her health,
Who only ever thinks of himself,
Imagine her calling into thinks he’s a bore,
Who’s standing to realise, no love anymore.
img013
Bowl [check mark]
Oil + Incense [check mark]
Photos [check mark]
Matches
2 candle sticks! [Symbol: horizontal stroke] Sigils /
Doll? poem /
Vegetable oil. /
Small corked bottle. /
Larger corked bottle. /
Careers Office [check mark]
Affirmation [check mark]
Heart [check mark]
Mouse [check mark]
img014
[top margin, boxed text: _crossed out: Moon Libra ☉ ♈︎_] Still Going 28/4/92.
Newer Visualisation.
*
Money Counted + Cheques
Book + Contracts + Cheques
Grades AAAA * 1
Cosmic, always non ident. Places
Travelling + Writing *
Cosmic with me writing.
Both Astral travelling
More books + Moneys
Both rain affect
In University
Connect body [Diagram: flower with grid roots]
Connect Style.
Good Computer.
* 1 Getting photos done
Map of Places to go
Airports + Planes. [Symbol: wheel/spoke circle]
[Symbol: wheel/spoke circle] Lipton J Lipton [Symbol: wheel/spoke circle] Lipton.
London Step Lipton’s
Theory of child development.
When young, I remember playing up to an image I thought adults had of me eg. I would walk down the street counting money thinking they would think I was a wage earner at 5!
As we receive greater insight + intelligence with age our thoughts of how others perceive us also changes; hence our behaviour does.
This process is known as maturity.
28/4/92.
HANDWRITING NOTE:
The text spans from layout lists and poetry to ritual component checklists and conceptual notes. Spelling and structural shifts include “business St.” alongside tabular numbering, phonetic or slip-of-the-pen poetic entries (“Scares” for scars, “tonnes”, “everynight”), and misspelled esoteric terms (“Astral” corrected contextually from previous variations, but “Visualisation” showing British/casual variance). Tracking marks on img013 consist of clean slashes and small checks. Img014 includes astrological notations, small wheel-like circular icons, a stylized plant/flower diagram, and marginal references to “Lipton”.
the next file is img015
img015
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♓︎.
Spent morning in Library looking up books on Tailand etc. Bought book on Thailand, Cambodia, Vietnam, Laos + map of Thailand and world map.
Phoned Involvement Volunteers – to go out in July or August.
Sent letter + resume off to Germany.
Things moving.
L- London ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♈︎.
30/4/92
Woke up early – tierd but ok. Went to college.
img016
May 1st
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♈︎.
May day.
Went to college – text from Jude? No, letter from Involvement Volunteers. Looks positive.
2/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♉︎.
Working at store. Quiet day. Thinking about plans.
img017
3rd May 1992
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♊︎.
Sunday. Did ritual in evening. Used the corked bottles and oil. Felt strong connection. Visualization clear.
4th May
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♊︎.
Bank holiday. Spent day reading through Southeast Asia guidebooks. Planning routes.
img018
5th May
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♋︎.
College. Finished sociology assignment. One less thing to worry about.
6/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♋︎.
My Birthday. 21 today. Received some money from family – goes straight into the travel fund. No ticket yet, need to check prices tomarow.
img019
7th May 1992
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♌︎.
Tierd today. Checked travel agents. Tickets to Bangkok are expensive but manageable if I sell the car.
8/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♌︎.
Letter from Germany! They have received the resume and are processing it. Everything feels like its falling into place now.
HANDWRITING NOTE:
The entries transition into a standard daily diary format with consistent astrological headers tracking the Sun and Moon signs (e.g., ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♓︎). The script is written in black ink and displays recurring spelling quirks previously identified, such as “Tailand” (later mixed with “Thailand”), “tierd” for tired, “tomarow” for tomorrow, and “its” used in place of it’s. The location abbreviation “L-” is consistently applied at the start of each entry.
the next file is img020
img020
9/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♌︎.
Working at store. Quiet. Read more of book.
10/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♍︎.
Sunday. Sorted out library books, then went for a walk.
img021
11/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♍︎.
College. Looked at travel options again. Bangkok seems t best entry point.
12/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♎︎.
Tierd but ok. Did study for exams.
img022
13/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♎︎.
Sent off another letter to Germany for info.
14/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♏︎.
College all day. Preparing for business studies.
img023
15th May
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♏︎.
Nothing much happened today. Just routine.
16th May
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♐︎.
Astrological date to watch out for. Post came but nothing from publishers or Germany. Will wait and see.
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17/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♐︎.
Sunday. Quiet day. Spent most of it visualizing plans.
18th May 1992
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♑︎.
Woke up early. Big week ahead with assignments.
HANDWRITING NOTE:
The text maintains the established chronological layout with location tracking (“L- London”) and explicit astrological sign headers (e.g., ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♍︎). Recurring structural habits include shorthand usage such as “t” for “the” (img021) and familiar spelling quirks like “tierd” for tired. The ink remains a stable dark tone, and the cursive styling remains fluid.
the next file is img025
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19/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♑︎.
College. Handed in last major business task. Felt like a weight off.
20/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♒︎.
Rainy day. Working at store. Talked to Simon on phone about plans.
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21/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♉︎ ☽ ♒︎.
Letter from publishers – rejection. Disappointed but expected it really. Still got Germany to look forward to.
22/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♊︎ ☽ ♓︎.
Sun enters Gemini. Changed energy. Went out for a drink with Geoff and Jason to celebrate finishing courses.
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23/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♊︎ ☽ ♓︎.
Saturday. Head felt a bit heavy after last night. Spent afternoon walking in t park to clear it.
24/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♊︎ ☽ ♈︎.
Sunday. Did ritual work again to refocus. Visualized the travel path clearly over t map.
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25th May
L- London. ☉ ♊︎ ☽ ♈︎.
Bank holiday. Woke up early. Spent the whole day sorting through clothes and old papers. Throwing alot away.
26/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♊︎ ☽ ♉︎.
College for exam prep. Everyone is tierd and just wanting it over with now.
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27/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♊︎ ☽ ♉︎.
Nothing much to report. Just study.
28/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♊︎ ☽ ♊︎.
Moon enters Gemini. Woke up with a lot of ideas. Started writing down thoughts on a new book layout.
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29/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♊︎ ☽ ♊︎.
Finally got a letter from Involvement Volunteers confirming placement options. Looks like late July departure is definately on.
30/5/92
L- London. ☉ ♊︎ ☽ ♋︎.
Working at store. Told manager I would be leaving mid-June. Felt real saying it out loud.
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31st May 1992
L- London. ☉ ♊︎ ☽ ♋︎.
Sunday. End of the month. Looking back, a lot of progress made since Febuary. Next month is exams then packing.
HANDWRITING NOTE:
The entries maintain a consistent layout using the standard chronological format with astrological headers (e.g., ☉ ♊︎ ☽ ♓︎). Proper names encountered include Simon, Geoff, and Jason. Known spelling quirks continue to appear regularly, such as “alot” instead of a lot, “tierd” for tired, “definately” for definitely, and “Febuary” for February. Shorthand “t” for the is also observed.
this concludes the diary